I like your user name, one of my favorite songs "arms open wide", reads as follows: "take my life, I lay it down..." I'm glad you survived, you are looking for hope, that's exactly what you need to focus on, you have a second chance, to love life, live to the fullest, hope for change, stay away from what hurts, start a new life with the new reborn you, be who you want to be. I will pray for you
