What a sad story you have. Try and be possitive in life and accept things as they are. You have your whole life ahead of you. And you can make it wonderful, you just have to be possitive. Life can only get easier. My son too was in the Stupid Royal Alex Hospital and they really screwed him up bigtime. They found him hanging in his bathroom from the faucet on April 3rd, 2007. His doctor told me 1 week before he did this that my son was not suicidal and that he just has behavior problems and that maybe i should be looking at getting him into a group home or a foster home as they are not babysitter there. What a jerk! My son was suppose to be protected! But instead his Doc gave hime Prozac. Why do kids want to dye it just doesnt make sence. I love my boy so much, and would do anything for him. He is now lying in a hospital bed , and no one is able to tell me if he will recover or not. I just want him to come home. I just want that Doctor to be fired and I believe that you can make yourself happy even if you feel you have nothing to be happy for..... make something... take care....