Well, certainly sorry to hear that you're having a hard time finding support, and people to hear your voice, and to have that ability to voice your opinion(s) on things~ It's essential, I think, for us to be able to express ourselves. And the lack of being able to do so, may inhibit our feelings of being free - if you know what I mean. In terms of, "playing all our notes (that we want to...)!" for others. It can otherwise feel a bit stifling or suffocating even at times, rather, I gather. . .