How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Lane]

Super anxious

is there anything in particular making you anxious that you want to talk about @Lady Wolfshead ?

 

[AvidFan]

I feel like a rat or pigeon in one of those horrible experiments - keep spamming keys hoping I'm rewarded with a letter 😆

 

[Windhover]

Yes you do, we all do. We just refuse sometimes to follow it. Well, OK, most of the time we refuse to follow it because change is hard, even if it’s change for a better life.

This is what I mean by hoping I have the awareness I need. I did not have the right awareness getting myself into this. I don't know if I can trust even myself anymore.

 

[1964dodge]

Super anxious

i'm sorry that you are super anxious right now. i hope you can calm down soon

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Also realised that having a draft post under composition, then quoting somebody, unintentionally posts the draft. Good job it wasn't anything bad, I'll leave it on as it's accurate. I've been a bit stressed today with laptop issues, bad weather and a horrible bus ride, as well as spilling expensive earth (potting soil) trying to save my aloe vera plant 😱 so I'm laying my head down to sleep. Sending love to anyone who needs it 💕💕💕

i know it's an expense that you don't need but maybe it's time for a new lap top, and it doesn't need to be new you can get a good used one on craiglist or ebay or the many other online auctions, another way to get a good laptop cheap is to go to a pawn shop, they are usually way below market value

mike....

 

[User X24345]

This is what I mean by hoping I have the awareness I need. I did not have the right awareness getting myself into this. I don't know if I can trust even myself anymore.

I understand. When we aren’t well, physically, emotionally, or mentally, we doubt EVERYTHING we do or say or don’t do or say. Just from what I’ve read since I’ve been here, I think you do know what you want, and are working your way towards that. I hope sharing here helps bring you to the decision. Are you physically safe right now?

 

[1964dodge]

I'm hoping I feel better after coffee etc as I feel groggy and tired. Yesterday wasn't good, felt tired and had hand tremors, think it was mainly from work and some stressors, I've got a couple of horrible days today and tomorrow. I keep telling myself there was a period when every day was like this, just got to pace myself through it.

i hope today and tomorrow goes well for you

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

i woke up at 4 am and took care of yesterdays mail, catching up on SF early and probably going out later but waiting until my wife gets up for my first cup of coffee, what a long wait lol

mike

 

[Walker]

How was the dentist @Angie

 

[Walker]

My foot is sore and I feel idiotic but apart from that I'm fine right now.

Is that from the burn??

 

[Walker]

I'm feeling OK, however it's becoming clear that lacking certain letters on my laptop keyboard is becoming more than a minor inconvenience when it comes to writing up my extensive worknotes (lots of words!). in fact it's become almost impossible. I got so frustrated with it that I've started using voice typing, which is an adventure all of its own. It's especially annoying when you realise the microphone has stopped working about five minutes ago and it hasn't typed anything that you've said. Maybe I should just plump up for a new laptop. 🤷

Maybe you can pick up an external keyboard for the temporary before ponying up for a whole new laptop. (or use it as an excuse to get a new one!)

 

[Pebble mouse]

Is that from the burn??

Yeah, Matt. it was only superficial. The weird thing is when I was last in hospital I did that deliberately (tipped boiling water on myself) and was in no pain at all, whereas this time it was agony. The mind is a powerful and strange thing.

 

[Walker]

I am trying not to push the situation into an even more stressful mode. But if I stop posting all of a sudden it may be I have impulsively left this place and woulf be on my alone to somewhere else. I dunno where I'd go, but I am not sure how much more of this I can tolerate. I don't even f-ing get to the end of a sentence before they finish it. What starts happening is very negative and I shoildn't tall about it here. The nightmares about being lost in the city are back. Crap

I can't tell if this is specifically about something happening here? If so, you know where to find me Write an Ask the Staff or drop me a line, okay?

 

[Walker]

Yeah, Matt. it was only superficial. The weird thing is when I was last in hospital I did that deliberately (tipped boiling water on myself) and was in no pain at all, whereas this time it was agony. The mind is a powerful and strange thing.

eek. Yes, brains ARE weird things, aren't they? It doesn't sound very superficial. Have you treated it properly with some burn cream at least? The numbing might do it some good.

 

[AvidFan]

Maybe you can pick up an external keyboard for the temporary before ponying up for a whole new laptop. (or use it as an excuse to get a new one!)

I'm making do, but my current laptop is a bit battered, battery gone, etc - I can get an equivalent one for £200 less than I paid for this one, so it might be time to just go for a new one and keep the old one for video calls and bits and pieces. I can afford a new one and deduct off my profits so I'm just waiting until I have the time to fiddle about with a new one!

 

[Road to Nowhere]

This is what I mean by hoping I have the awareness I need. I did not have the right awareness getting myself into this. I don't know if I can trust even myself anymore.

A bird sitting on a tree is never afraid of the branch breaking, because its trust is not on the branch but on its own wings.

 

[Astrid78]

A bird sitting on a tree is never afraid of the branch breaking, because its trust is not on the branch but on its own wings.

Beautiful.
Liking the new avatar
Hugs @Road to Nowhere

 

[Angie]

How was the dentist @Angie

Well, the dentist was sick, so I didn't have to go! Yay!

 

[Windhover]

I can't tell if this is specifically about something happening here? If so, you know where to find me Write an Ask the Staff or drop me a line, okay?

Not here, it is my partner's behavior. Sorry I should've been more specific.

thank you @Walker .

 

[iloverachel]

Not happy. Not really sad either
Life just seems bland and pointless