i'm absolutely terrified right now. i have to report my grades to my father (i'm in engineering school) and i know they're absolutely disastrous. i just want to disappear. i'm probably not going to be able to finish my year because my grades are so low. i've done my best though.
I know that there is a tremendous amount of pressure by parents, on their children / or kids, to perform--& to perform, "Well" in school. For some, the expectations & standards are so unreasonable, or so unrealistic, that they can cause them to take drastic action. It's okay if you can't see it now, or if you already do and happen to disagree with their views & their handling of you. By exerting this pressure on you, they don't always help, but rather hurt and serve to hinder or be an impediment in matters (such as your forward successful progress). I think that, with time, grant it you can mange to hang in there that long--you will one day be able to look back on this and see precisely or exactly what it is that I mean by what I say (or am trying too - there's only 8 million distractions going on as I TRY to write/or type out one single sentence, let along word, without fault or flaw. . .). So anyway, just know that you are not alone. You can still always change majors, if you find or feel that this is not the right one for you. We often don't find that out until we try it out. And so, while not part of or according to our original plan, I don't know how it is these days, but back when I was in school, I think they said that around half of the people will change their majors at least one time, if not more, before graduating from college (18-22). Yeah, this is not a healthy fear to be having (or dreading/experiencing, etc.) in my opinion: the one you're feeling now, in regards having to 'report things (or your grades more specifically) to your father." And engineering school is about as tough as it gets. Only the smartest peers I knew went through (& made it, as in out towards graduation with degrees in hand) at or while during that time - of my life. Had I of graduated when I was supposed to (I didn't; I didn't even come close. . .) it would've been about gosh, let's just say well over 20 yrs. ago! So there you go~ / sometimes, with the benefit of time, hindsight will lend or yield much more favorable views on one's life (as in your own) than they do now - or currently. I'm sure right now you can't see past next week. And you feel like it's going to be the end of the world. I'm just here to try to tell you that that won't always be the case. And that you just might change your midn some-day. Best wishes to you
@unhappybunny : )