I have the same thing. I grew up in a strict religious household where “spare the rod and spoil the child,” along with “idle hands are the devil’s workshop,” could have been said to be house rules. Yeah, any time I tried to relax I got put to use doing more chores. Now I’m terribly messy and I hate tidying up. I have no idea why.,,, 🙄. Somehow I have learned how to relax in my old age.