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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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Christ almighty. That does sound quite horrible. I can only offer sympathy- I wish I could help somehow. I’m thinking many different thoughts about this war because of your story. It is really unjust. We are not supposed to talk politics here so I will tiptoe around that. I can say that it seems wrong on a moral level but it goes into politics to say more.
I have learned how to trust myself after having no self confidence or self respect. I have had a lot of PTSD therapy and substance use treatment. For some reason keeping my self sober also helps me with trust.
Not saying you should do the same, but self trust lack seems to me as something that I experience as a side effect of dealing with trauma and attachment issues through substance use and other self destructive behaviors. If you know what is the root cause of why you don’t trust yourself, then you can start working to offset that. It took me years, and it was worth it.
Not saying you should do the same, but self trust lack seems to me as something that I experience as a side effect of dealing with trauma and attachment issues through substance use and other self destructive behaviors. If you know what is the root cause of why you don’t trust yourself, then you can start working to offset that. It took me years, and it was worth it.
i can tell you something that i was reminded of by a special friend. If it was really bad and important, they would have contacted you asap. It reminded me of when i had a skin biopsy, and was called in the same afternoon to return the next morning to have the surrounding area removed. When it's serious, they call immediately. When it isn't, they don't. It's difficult to remember that when you are in the middle of it.
Please keep us updated.
Please keep us updated.
Like I've been scream-sobbing for a long time
With no resolution, just pauses for more tears to surface
Remembering where I've been so many times since my wife died
Occupying a space between life and death, dark and light
With no place that I truly belong
It was a foul injustice that I woke up
She deserved so much more time,
She drew people to her,
There were a lot of people who cared about her
The world deserved more time with her
But for me, the world will be indifferent
If anyone even notices, they'll think they thought I'd been dead for years
It seems pointless to keep 1 part of a 2 part set
I'm carrying the choice, I've resisted most times
But the world is already full of destruction, I don't want to add to it
Today, that's what I will try to focus on
peace
With no resolution, just pauses for more tears to surface
Remembering where I've been so many times since my wife died
Occupying a space between life and death, dark and light
With no place that I truly belong
It was a foul injustice that I woke up
She deserved so much more time,
She drew people to her,
There were a lot of people who cared about her
The world deserved more time with her
But for me, the world will be indifferent
If anyone even notices, they'll think they thought I'd been dead for years
It seems pointless to keep 1 part of a 2 part set
I'm carrying the choice, I've resisted most times
But the world is already full of destruction, I don't want to add to it
Today, that's what I will try to focus on
peace
Like I've been scream-sobbing for a long time
With no resolution, just pauses for more tears to surface
She deserved so much more time,
She drew people to her,
There were a lot of people who cared about her
The world deserved more time with her
But for me, the world will be indifferent
If anyone even notices, they'll think they thought I'd been dead for years
peace
With no resolution, just pauses for more tears to surface
She deserved so much more time,
She drew people to her,
There were a lot of people who cared about her
The world deserved more time with her
But for me, the world will be indifferent
If anyone even notices, they'll think they thought I'd been dead for years
peace
It seems so cruel that the best of us seem to have the least time on earth. Once I asked my therapist what moral failings I must have to have lived longer than him. He wanted me to survive though. He was hanging on for me. He knew my issues and how desperately I needed him. I promised him I would be okay so that we could say goodbye. I feel it was a great blessing that I was able to say that I love him one last time.
It has been 7.5 years since we parted, which is already half the time we spent together. I still have grief that causes me agony at times. I can’t say that it will be fine, because it already isn’t. What I can say is that I feel better after getting my tears out. Repressed grief is toxic even to the body. It’s a good thing to go through the emotions rather than to avoid.
Like I've been scream-sobbing for a long time
With no resolution, just pauses for more tears to surface
Remembering where I've been so many times since my wife died
Occupying a space between life and death, dark and light
With no place that I truly belong
It was a foul injustice that I woke up
She deserved so much more time,
She drew people to her,
There were a lot of people who cared about her
The world deserved more time with her
But for me, the world will be indifferent
If anyone even notices, they'll think they thought I'd been dead for years
It seems pointless to keep 1 part of a 2 part set
I'm carrying the choice, I've resisted most times
But the world is already full of destruction, I don't want to add to it
Today, that's what I will try to focus on
peace
With no resolution, just pauses for more tears to surface
Remembering where I've been so many times since my wife died
Occupying a space between life and death, dark and light
With no place that I truly belong
It was a foul injustice that I woke up
She deserved so much more time,
She drew people to her,
There were a lot of people who cared about her
The world deserved more time with her
But for me, the world will be indifferent
If anyone even notices, they'll think they thought I'd been dead for years
It seems pointless to keep 1 part of a 2 part set
I'm carrying the choice, I've resisted most times
But the world is already full of destruction, I don't want to add to it
Today, that's what I will try to focus on
peace
Like I've been scream-sobbing for a long time
With no resolution, just pauses for more tears to surface
Remembering where I've been so many times since my wife died
Occupying a space between life and death, dark and light
With no place that I truly belong
It was a foul injustice that I woke up
She deserved so much more time,
She drew people to her,
There were a lot of people who cared about her
The world deserved more time with her
But for me, the world will be indifferent
If anyone even notices, they'll think they thought I'd been dead for years
It seems pointless to keep 1 part of a 2 part set
I'm carrying the choice, I've resisted most times
But the world is already full of destruction, I don't want to add to it
Today, that's what I will try to focus on
peace
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Your wife sounds like she was an amazing woman. I wish you strength and peace in your life Lefty.
With no resolution, just pauses for more tears to surface
Remembering where I've been so many times since my wife died
Occupying a space between life and death, dark and light
With no place that I truly belong
It was a foul injustice that I woke up
She deserved so much more time,
She drew people to her,
There were a lot of people who cared about her
The world deserved more time with her
But for me, the world will be indifferent
If anyone even notices, they'll think they thought I'd been dead for years
It seems pointless to keep 1 part of a 2 part set
I'm carrying the choice, I've resisted most times
But the world is already full of destruction, I don't want to add to it
Today, that's what I will try to focus on
peace
[/QUOTEYour wife sounds like she was an amazing woman. I wish you strength and peace in your life Lefty.
Glad you had a nice & civil meal with your Son! :^) I think that, we all do that--or, that I don't know; maybe 9 out of 10 that have ever lived probably also feel that way, to some degree~ / in other words, that they could have taken a different path or approach to something, or with someone in life. And then - how that, in turn - might or may have led to a different, & usually "presumably," better outcome. Maybe it is human nature? We want, what we can't (or don't) have. Even if I am RICH AND FAMOUS. I still want something else. . .
Like I've been scream-sobbing for a long time
With no resolution, just pauses for more tears to surface
Remembering where I've been so many times since my wife died
Occupying a space between life and death, dark and light
With no place that I truly belong
It was a foul injustice that I woke up
She deserved so much more time,
She drew people to her,
There were a lot of people who cared about her
The world deserved more time with her
But for me, the world will be indifferent
If anyone even notices, they'll think they thought I'd been dead for years
It seems pointless to keep 1 part of a 2 part set
I'm carrying the choice, I've resisted most times
But the world is already full of destruction, I don't want to add to it
Today, that's what I will try to focus on
peace
With no resolution, just pauses for more tears to surface
Remembering where I've been so many times since my wife died
Occupying a space between life and death, dark and light
With no place that I truly belong
It was a foul injustice that I woke up
She deserved so much more time,
She drew people to her,
There were a lot of people who cared about her
The world deserved more time with her
But for me, the world will be indifferent
If anyone even notices, they'll think they thought I'd been dead for years
It seems pointless to keep 1 part of a 2 part set
I'm carrying the choice, I've resisted most times
But the world is already full of destruction, I don't want to add to it
Today, that's what I will try to focus on
peace
Ouch! . . . that raises, & you bring-up, an EXCELLENT Point... so, Touche`! (^; (always nice to have a scathing critic in the family, in case we need any help in that area on our own. . .) / I'm doing o-kay. 
I think it's going to rain any minute. So was thinking of going to bring back in the trash. And that's about as exciting as I expect it to get 'round here, to day!
I think it's going to rain any minute. So was thinking of going to bring back in the trash. And that's about as exciting as I expect it to get 'round here, to day!