How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Inanimate]

Jaded from carrying on day by day. Hopeless because anything seemingly worth keeping up is so grinding and ineffectual. More than anything, I’m sick of listening to myself complain, and crushed by how easy it is to succumb to the temptation. Why is change, which is supposedly inevitable, seemingly impossible to effect?

 

[1964dodge]

I actually don't really remember. Probably because my soon-to-be boss hadn't replied to my message for about 3 days now. I took the initiative, signed my contract, and sent it back to him. Just hoping for the best.

did you hear back yet ? i hope everything works out well for you

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Jaded from carrying on day by day. Hopeless because anything seemingly worth keeping up is so grinding and ineffectual. More than anything, I’m sick of listening to myself complain, and crushed by how easy it is to succumb to the temptation. Why is change, which is supposedly inevitable, seemingly impossible to effect?

 

[1964dodge]

Idk why, I feel comforted coming here..

i think for a few reasons : 1. we can come here and talk without being judged, 2. most people have empathy on SF 3. in one way or another we can relate to each others pain like most people irl can't. 4 it's a place where we can share our pain without comparing who is worse, here all pain is valid. i'm sure there are a lot more reasons, also making good friends

mike.....

 

[1964dodge]

Upset, my niece that's staying on my couch says all she wants to do is die. This is after a few weeks of her drinking and not eating. She eats nothing for days. I encourage her to take a walk and eat. This morning I said to look for an apartment or a job she says she wants to die. Out patient would cost her $100 per day copay so she won't do that. Now she says she is going to go to an extended living hotel. I just don't know what else to do.

i'm sorry you have to go through that @Lane

 

[1964dodge]

Praise Jesus! I'm getting hired finally at a job. I don't have to sit at home anymore!

congratulations @Aurelia all of your hard work has payed off. i'd say i hope you do well but i won't because i know you'll do well

mike...

 

[1964dodge]

i'm doing pretty good lately. i'm doing better i think mostly because my pain is in the valley cycle. so instead of being in the 5 to 6 range out of 10 i'm around 4 or 5 and it stays lower longer. i still get spikes every night but they are lower and last less time. it's hard to stay positive but for the most part i'm positive most of the time

mike

 

[puffymilk]

did you hear back yet ? i hope everything works out well for you

mike....

nope, nothing so far

 

[AvidFan]

i think for a few reasons : 1. we can come here and talk without being judged, 2. most people have empathy on SF 3. in one way or another we can relate to each others pain like most people irl can't. 4 it's a place where we can share our pain without comparing who is worse, here all pain is valid. i'm sure there are a lot more reasons, also making good friends

mike.....

These all ring true. I think another one is, sometimes it helps to help other people, and even if you feel bad yourself, being able to offer even a little support to someone else can feel empowering and improve your mood. For me there's also a sense of familiarity when I see the same names, I don't see many non-work people in real life, so this place serves a social function for me as well. I like that it's an old school forum, there used to be a lot more of them, it feels like these days a lot of forums switched to Reddit and there it feels like you never interact with the same person twice, it feels really anonymous and disconnected. Just my groggy morning coffee thoughts!

 

[Lane]

Stressed out and disappointed. I stand by my niece because I've loved her since she was a baby and she and I took care of my mother the year before she passed...when my own sisters were no where to be found.

 

[Lane]

Worked to death at the moment. Just came here for a few moments' respite.

I hope you can get in some "you time" Avid.

 

[Lane]

Praise Jesus! I'm getting hired finally at a job. I don't have to sit at home anymore!

I'm so happy for you! Congratulations 🎉

 

[Lane]

Jaded from carrying on day by day. Hopeless because anything seemingly worth keeping up is so grinding and ineffectual. More than anything, I’m sick of listening to myself complain, and crushed by how easy it is to succumb to the temptation. Why is change, which is supposedly inevitable, seemingly impossible to effect?

Sounds like you're doing everything right. The day to day grind can be boring and tedious. Just wanted to offer you my support @Inanimate

 

[Lane]

A little less alone, thanks to those who said I have a place here. You all are very kind and I'm feeling really down and alone. I don't think ahead too much, I am getting concerned I'm headed for more aloneness. And now my younger got kicked out, I had said I'd never let him in my car. Guess I should have stuck to it, I feel sorry for him, but he's treating it like a trash can again. I think tomorrow i tell him go see what shelters are open in the city. I cant go on and he cant like this. Thanks for this place to vent. and hugs to everyone who needs them

You are definitely not alone with us here. I hope that you have good luck finding space at the shelters for your son. Please vent whenever you need to @toomuchreality.

 

[SillyOldBear]

Undecided. Let me ask my fellow Americans what their experience may be.

Have any of you used a DO instead of an MD? If so, what was your experience.

Same question for a DNP ARNP vs MD.

Thanks in advance for your help on this.

 

[AvidFan]

I hope you can get in some "you time" Avid.

Thank you. I'm definitely trying to. For far too long I've been "always on", checking emails, dealing with work, thinking about work, all the time, wherever I was. Lately I've tried (again), to only do work when I am clocked on, and I only clock on (in my head and my app) when I am a) in my home office or b) in my downtown office. Outside of those locations, no checking work emails or drifting into work mode on the sofa because my laptop and phone are there. Seems to be working so far. Still have to spend a lot of time in the offices but at least I'm experiencing a sense of being away from it when I'm not in those 2 locations.

 

[nicktheundoer]

You came to this world alone, and you'll leave this world alone..

 

[Aurelia]

Jaded from carrying on day by day. Hopeless because anything seemingly worth keeping up is so grinding and ineffectual. More than anything, I’m sick of listening to myself complain, and crushed by how easy it is to succumb to the temptation. Why is change, which is supposedly inevitable, seemingly impossible to effect?

That depends, what kind of change are you looking for, my friend? I also want you to know that even when we don't talk, I pray for you--for your mental and physical wellness--and that you are still on my mind.

 

[Aurelia]

The most incredible thing happened to me yesterday. I received the gift of tongues from the Holy Spirit. I started praying in Spanish and Latin, and Latvian, and other languages I couldn't even recognize. This here is proof that God exists.

 

[puffymilk]

Sad, and a bit hopeless. I can't wait to escape this bullshit/hellhole. I'm not even sure how.