How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[AmberMarie]

i can actually see a light through the trees! i still have to navigate through a thick Forrest of extra-large sequoia trees, over a few bottomless pits, and around some quicksand... but there IS light! and i Will get through it come sat evening! Yes... it's a timeline because i am headed to the Mayo for a few more appointments. So Come sat evening i am free once again! (*hums quietly to myself* On the Road Again while prepping to pack).

 

[AvidFan]

I am just so tired.

 

[Aurelia]

Today I start my Suboxone detox. In 6 months, I'm supposed to be off. Today is my first Sublocade injection to lessen the pain of withdrawal. Soon I will no longer need to take this medication to not feel dopesick in the morning. That day will be a blessing. Granted, I will no longer "take it" starting today, for all I will get are the injections every month. But it will still be in my system until the injections are done.

 

[mosaic hearts]

This gave me a lot of comfort today. I hope it's okay to share:

Peace & love to all SF family members!!!

 

[cymbele]

I have a date to aim for for retirement Jan 2026. Why so Long you ask? Well, I'm not 65 until next August anyway and the company bonuses and paid days off occur in December. I won't say anything until next August anyway to the company because I want to go pt in retirement. At least the first year. But it is the first goal I have chosen for at least a couple of years (I've been drifting as far goals for life have been). I'll still be envious of those who can retire earlier though but I've got to deal with the cards I've got.

 

[Windhover]

@LumberJack we like and love seeing you here. I'm sorry these thoughts are so persistent. Is there any peace to be found woven between the conflicting thoughts, is what I'm wondering. Sometimes during meditation it's possible to stumble upon find a sideways sort of connection and acceptance that Nature will be the one to decide when we die.

hugs

 

[Windhover]

I'm worried about a bad situation not for myself but for someone I love. I wish I could help, but it's kind of a police matter and they need to take action about a bad person who is doing weird aggresive acts next to their neighbors.

 

[LumberJack]

Is there any peace to be found woven between the conflicting thoughts, is what I'm wondering. Sometimes during meditation it's possible to stumble upon find a sideways sort of connection and acceptance that Nature will be the one to decide when we die.

hugs

Interesting you should ask. I noticed this afternoon that I can sort of push myself into feeling better. I put on my “present well” character and act like I am okay. By character I mean that I’m a convincing actor, and I have developed a range of personas that I put on for certain situations. My present well character is mainly for customer service interactions, or in any situation where I have to “adult” and hide my symptoms. This can work for a little while, but it takes enormous effort. I run out of energy after a while and then I’m miserable again. It’s kind of like a battery that is drained by my fake it until you make it crap, but it can be recharged by genuine social interaction and certain other activities that are soothing. Interestingly, self care such as eating healthy food or brushing my teeth daily tends to drain my battery, and sugary snacks and cheeseburgers help it to recharge. Not sure why, but it seems that way.

 

[Windhover]

Interesting you should ask. I noticed this afternoon that I can sort of push myself into feeling better. I put on my “present well” character and act like I am okay. By character I mean that I’m a convincing actor, and I have developed a range of personas that I put on for certain situations. My present well character is mainly for customer service interactions, or in any situation where I have to “adult” and hide my symptoms. This can work for a little while, but it takes enormous effort. I run out of energy after a while and then I’m miserable again. It’s kind of like a battery that is drained by my fake it until you make it crap, but it can be recharged by genuine social interaction and certain other activities that are soothing. Interestingly, self care such as eating healthy food or brushing my teeth daily tends to drain my battery, and sugary snacks and cheeseburgers help it to recharge. Not sure why, but it seems that way.

I hope you're able to feel safe, and authentic as you want to be while on SF.

I didn't mean to say one should turn towards one of the false characters, I hope what I said didn't imply that.

 

[LumberJack]

I hope you're able to feel safe, and authentic as you want to be while on SF.

I didn't mean to say one should turn towards one of the false characters, I hope what I said didn't imply that.

No, I feel free to be myself here, even if that is highly variable and not always very good.

I mean that if I put on my cheerful character, eventually I will feel better although I have doubts in the back of my mind. So the thoughts are still there, but I am less distracted by the physical symptoms of my depression.

IDK if that makes sense, but the sense of anonymity here makes it seem like a safe place to be more myself, than I would be IRL, because if I am vulnerable in the wrong situation irl then I end up hurting.

 

[Windhover]

like a safe place to be more myself, than I would be IRL, because if I am vulnerable in the wrong situation irl then I end up hurting.

Yes, at least for me it's the same.

Maybe my sense of peace in meditation, despite bring of a very short diration, helps counteract the false persona which drains the self. It seems werd, but the suffering I experience while running, and the sense of accplishment at the end, also helps with the above. I feel like myself again for a few hours.

 

[mosaic hearts]

I've had better days & I'm coping. Not sure what else to say at the moment. Sorry.

 

[Bergerac]

not so tired (for once) but still aware I'm a piece of s***

 

[Windhover]

This whole show, the winners and losers, conflicts and attraactions, the highs and lows, beautiful people and not so beautiful, the fails, successes, etc., means absolutely nothing. The social struggles, yearnings, tears and arrogance of billions of little humans spinning around on a tiny planet, none of it means anything.

 

[AmberMarie]

Overwhelmed by all these out of control feelings. i have not sh in a few days and that is usually my release to keep these feelings in check. i am trying my best, and feels like i am failing miserably!

 

[Bergerac]

panicked, out of control, life passing me by. I hate this. But nothing I can do. No-one will take me.

 

[Aurelia]

Work again this morning. Praying that all goes well.

 

[AvidFan]

Grateful for the opportunity to earn £9 🤦

 

[Aurelia]

panicked, out of control, life passing me by. I hate this. But nothing I can do. No-one will take me.

Take you where?

 

[Aurelia]

I've had better days & I'm coping. Not sure what else to say at the moment. Sorry.

Each morning, He grants us new blessings. Just have faith and you might be surprised what the day will bring.