-
IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT: Please read THIS THREAD about a rebrand for SF.
How Are You Feeling Right Now?
- Thread starter UNREGISTERED0000
- Start date
Hugs
I don't understand how I can keep disappointing myself over and over like this. You would think by now that it would have started to sink that I'm not capable of much and even entertaining the possibility that I could be is just naive. It never ends well.
I'm a massive loser and that's okay. It doesn't mean I'm a bad person or I deserve to be looked down on (even though most people will do just that). All it means is that I can't do much and my life is going to kind of really suck.
I'm a massive loser and that's okay. It doesn't mean I'm a bad person or I deserve to be looked down on (even though most people will do just that). All it means is that I can't do much and my life is going to kind of really suck.
Welcome to SF @vvyvvysyxx. I'm sorry for the circumstances that brought you here but hope that by being here you can find some peace. This is a non judgemental place with friendly and insightful members. I believe that you're capable of more than you realize and definitely not a loser. 
What a great shopping spree, on last black friday sale which I’m sure there’ll be more sales during this festive period but maybe black friday sale just has the biggest discount. omg. my heart dropped when I got what I wanted for less than $150 for personal care and pampering products using it for 4 months to be cost effective haha and I feel like I can spend more on food next year. ooo awww I want that paper bag teddy bear limited edition from luckin coffee with its new delicious flavour latte which i forgot what… it sold out just, i will go back tmrw for the bear bag.😸 only got the coffee 🥺
Last edited:
Right now, I’m just chilling a bit, thinking about how I want to spend the rest of my Saturday. It’s been a bit of a hectic week, so I’m happy for some downtime. I’m planning to either get outside for a run or dive into a game I’ve been meaning to play—nothing too crazy, just trying to enjoy the moment.
I'm a bit stressed and tired. I didn't have a great start to the day, I was expecting a delivery, it was supposed to be delivered Saturday but I was going to be out, so I arranged for it to be dropped off at their locker round the corner. No problem right, I do it with Amazon all the time. So I woke up to a message saying "Driver coudn't find address your delivery is being held at depot and will be delivered tomorrow". I was like, will it though? They said on Saturday it would be delivered today and the driver can't find their own effing locker so what guarantee do I have they'll find it tomorrow? So I started trying to get on to customer service and all I could get was ChatGPT, at which point the bastard bird next door started up it's loud tweeting yet again, they've clearly moved it right back on to my wall. A red mist descended (this wasn't 10 minutes after I woke up). Let's just say I've been hoarse all day from screaming and swearing at the wall/bird/neigbours. All quite unrepeatable. I just snapped. If they don't get the message they must be deaf. Which is ironic, because when I had fragments of ear plugs stuck in my ear I had my hearing tested and the ENT said my hearing for high frequencies was pretty bad and would I like a hearing aid? LOL, I said I could manage fine, unfortunately my rock concert damaged ear drums seem fine at picking up the high-pitched frequency of the yapping bird. Everyone I talk to says they would find it maddening too. Some days the first thing I hear when I walk into my house after working for 8 hours is the yapping bird. Other days it's the first thing I hear over my morning coffee. It's at exactly the right frequency to be extremely irritating. The worst thing is it went quiet for 5 days the other week, I could very faintly hear it if I strained. So they have somewhere in the house where it's better sound proofed. But then they move the fucking thing back, like they're taunting me with 5 days of what my peaceful living room could be like, then sticking two fingers up and putting the bird back against my wall.
Apart from this madness and merriment, I'm OK. I was quitting chocolate but I hit the shop up for a fix on the way home. 🤷
Apart from this madness and merriment, I'm OK. I was quitting chocolate but I hit the shop up for a fix on the way home. 🤷
I’m just feeling really down and exhausted. I’m worn out by work. It feels like there have been more entitled patients than usual, and it really makes my job harder. I had to get a haircut over the weekend, and my self image issues have been flaring up.
More than anything, I feel hurt by my family, especially my sister, the more I reflect about how she treated me after I shaved my eyebrows off in November. She was just yelling at me over the phone, threatening to look through all of my electronics and prevent me from shaving my own face & body without supervision. I needed reassurance and all I got was her and my mom yelling at me. I’m used to my mom acting like that but my sister doing it stings so much more. I hate how they both just decided to send me to a mental hospital. My stay turned out to be really nice and peaceful but that first night was terrifying, all alone in the ward, with alarms going off every few minutes whenever a patient got unstable.
I know that they were worried but I wish they spent more time thinking about how I felt. It would have been so nice being given reassurance that I wasn’t alone, and that they’d help me through whatever I had to go through. But in my family, every time I’m down, it feels like they just want to dig me further in.
More than anything, I feel hurt by my family, especially my sister, the more I reflect about how she treated me after I shaved my eyebrows off in November. She was just yelling at me over the phone, threatening to look through all of my electronics and prevent me from shaving my own face & body without supervision. I needed reassurance and all I got was her and my mom yelling at me. I’m used to my mom acting like that but my sister doing it stings so much more. I hate how they both just decided to send me to a mental hospital. My stay turned out to be really nice and peaceful but that first night was terrifying, all alone in the ward, with alarms going off every few minutes whenever a patient got unstable.
I know that they were worried but I wish they spent more time thinking about how I felt. It would have been so nice being given reassurance that I wasn’t alone, and that they’d help me through whatever I had to go through. But in my family, every time I’m down, it feels like they just want to dig me further in.