How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[1964dodge]

had a small bug and exhausted for a few days but feeling better now, not great but i should be able to go out tomorrow for a few things

mike.

 

[1964dodge]

Thank you Mike. You are awesome 😎

you are welcome my friend

mike....

 

[ClassicsFan]

Ecstatic.

 

[KM76710]

Feeling the loss of my mum tonight. Still can’t quite believe she’s not here anymore. 😢

That is a tough loss especially during the holidays. You have my thoughts with you...

 

[Windhover]

Maybe the good that comes of it is a renewed relationship with yourself. I hope for a good fresh start for you. I think we'll both be glad to see the back of 2024!

That's a great way to look at it. 😊 Definitely grateful for some things, but getting ready to wave goodbye to 2024 absolutely!

 

[AmberMarie]

i wanted to end this hellacious year on a good statement.

i am feeling extremely Thankful and appreciative to All of SF. This year has been pretty bad for me. i can honestly say it's been the worst year of my life.
i can also honestly say that if it weren't for all in SF, i wouldn't have made it this far in 2024!
i want to say Thank You! Thank You to each and every one of you, both the veterans and the new. Those who have been in SF from the beginning all the way to those who have joined today.
Reading other's words have helped me understand my own, and helped me see many things in a new light! i have Never felt anything other than encouragement, support and kindness!

So... How am i feeling right now???
Grateful to each and every one that has ever stepped foot in SF... and especially thankful to those who take the time to try and encourage so many... even when their own life may be hanging by a tiny frayed thread.

 

[TragicReality]

i'm sorry that you are going through so much right now. maybe you can talk to the landlord and offer to pay the damage. my heart goes out to you, i know it's not irl but a lot of us care about you here

mike,....

thank you. I am / have offered and will pay even though I have to leave and there was no damage deposit on the lease. I really could stay, I talked to my lawyer. Landlord 'threatens' he'll sell his property here if I don't leave. Lawyer said stay put. But reading what neighbors have texted about my son and i makes me sick. I'm out of here asap even though it's hard being on disability to find a new roof. Hugs back Mike, hope you're ok tonight.

 

[Inanimate]

Resigned, dejected, and lost. I don’t know how I’m coming back or if I even care to. I’m weary of these thoughts and feelings, yet the mind never tires. All it takes is the sound of my inner voice to surrender to melancholy. I wish I could no longer hear it.

 

[IDontWantToDie]

I have butterflies in my stomach. Morning caffeine rush

 

[IDontWantToDie]

Resigned, dejected, and lost. I don’t know how I’m coming back or if I even care to. I’m weary of these thoughts and feelings, yet the mind never tires. All it takes is the sound of my inner voice to surrender to melancholy. I wish I could no longer hear it.

 

[Survivorist]

Quite cool, happy and a little nervous. Leaving on Thursday morning, I will be in Cap Skirring on Friday at 1200, spend a nice WE there, get married (again) on Tuesday at 10.00 (paper work only - we are already married since Sudan in 2021). Then - stay cool for 20 days, reduce medication I still take every day. This is the goal. I will walk every day from Ziguinchor to the border with Guinea Bissau (very nice road, 7 KM or so). Absent: 02.01 - 29.01.25. To all: Happy new Year.

Here my song for 2025 (as always - self made):

 

[Lane]

it is the responsibility to raise children the best we can. we have to make decisions on the knowledge we have on hand. there comes a time when children make their own decisions and some can be wrong. all we can do is be there for them and ask them if you can have an honest and frank talk. you can't blame her for making mistakes but you can point them out and offer advice. you did right by raising your kids so please don't blame yourself. my kids made some bad mistakes but eventually turned out great.

mike.....

Thank you Mike for responding to my post and sharing your own experience. I'm trying to keep positive and she is just moving ahead with interviews. Keeping fingers crossed. I hope you are feeling well today.

 

[Lane]

Stupidly down and anxious. Probably just a result of having too much time on my hands and being consistently alone without any work stuff to provide my extrovert part with an energy topup, my routine is non existent, I've been eating rubbish for 10 days and not doing much exercise or anything much. I know I'll be 100% fine when I go back to the grind but my mind is dwelling on "A week ago I had two weeks off now I'm well over half way through and it's slipping through my fingers and soon I'm going to be wishing it was two weeks ago". I'll probably feel better when my bank balance starts moving in the right direction again. Just don't feel as optimistic for 2025 as I did for 2024. But then that optimism was unfounded as it was an awful year, maybe my pessimism will be unfounded too!

I start to get antsy too when I have too much time on my hands. I do hope this year is better for you all around Avid.

 

[LumberJack]

had a small bug and exhausted for a few days but feeling better now, not great but i should be able to go out tomorrow for a few things

mike.

I think I had the same thing. It seems to be all over the US. It’s a nasty cough with a lot of fatigue, but otherwise it feels like a run of the mill cold? My coworkers have also had it, although we are in different states.

 

[LumberJack]

Stupidly down and anxious. Probably just a result of having too much time on my hands and being consistently alone without any work stuff to provide my extrovert part with an energy topup, my routine is non existent, I've been eating rubbish for 10 days and not doing much exercise or anything much. I know I'll be 100% fine when I go back to the grind but my mind is dwelling on "A week ago I had two weeks off now I'm well over half way through and it's slipping through my fingers and soon I'm going to be wishing it was two weeks ago". I'll probably feel better when my bank balance starts moving in the right direction again. Just don't feel as optimistic for 2025 as I did for 2024. But then that optimism was unfounded as it was an awful year, maybe my pessimism will be unfounded too!

Boredom is like torture for me. I imagine you might be similar. Sometimes I feel like there’s too much mental energy and if I don’t find an outlet I will do destructive things, either to myself or to property.

There was a famous Thai Buddhist teacher/monk who was renowned for his extremely strong equanimity and stability. In Thai culture, there is a belief that people with a strong meditation practice can develop special powers such as the ability to read minds or to tell the future. So this monk, named Ajahn Chah, was frequently approached for fortune telling services. His response was always, “The future will be…. uncertain!!!” I am reminded of this when I start thinking about the future, be it optimistic or pessimistic. To paraphrase another famous spiritual figure, there’s no need to worry about 2025; we have enough trouble for today.

 

[LumberJack]

I’m feeling better today. Maybe not great, but I feel like I’m reclaiming some of the self efficacy that I lost when I went inpatient.

Related to this, last night I was in a social event, and I realized that I care less and less about what people think about me. My position is that, unless you can hire or fire me, what you think about me is none of my business.

I’m allowing myself to be more openly gay because that’s how I am, and I have been suppressing it since high school. Some people have been appreciative, and others are irritated. Either way, it’s not my problem. I am myself and anyone who feels threatened by my behavior is fully welcome to get the hell away from me.

 

[SillyOldBear]

Am not looking forward to another year. I never thought I would live to be this old. But I have. Now I just have to deal with it. I guess I should just take it one day at a time. And try and find something good in another year.

 

[LumberJack]

Am not looking forward to another year. I never thought I would live to be this old. But I have. Now I just have to deal with it. I guess I should just take it one day at a time. And try and find something good in another year.

I’m sorry Barb. I’m also older than I ever thought I would be. It’s a feeling of, “now what?” I am not even that old (by medical standards), but the fact that I’m still here after my 40 th birthday is unexpected.

I like your approach of thinking about finding something good in the coming year. I’m reminded of a quip along the lines of we find whatever we look for. I don’t remember the exact wording.

Obviously there are stressors and then our own mental health symptoms that cause us emotional pain, and lead to a generally gloomy outlook. I think this is more realistic than the consumer society expectation that everything will be fine. Beyond that, though, we can still appreciate what good fortune does come our way.

 

[SillyOldBear]

I’m sorry Barb. I’m also older than I ever thought I would be. It’s a feeling of, “now what?” I am not even that old (by medical standards), but the fact that I’m still here after my 40 th birthday is unexpected.

I like your approach of thinking about finding something good in the coming year. I’m reminded of a quip along the lines of we find whatever we look for. I don’t remember the exact wording.

Obviously there are stressors and then our own mental health symptoms that cause us emotional pain, and lead to a generally gloomy outlook. I think this is more realistic than the consumer society expectation that everything will be fine. Beyond that, though, we can still appreciate what good fortune does come our way.

Thanks Jack. I appreciate your understanding. I will be 73 in a few days. Getting old really does suck! So much goes wrong with the body. So much more pain and wondering what will break next. Kind of like @1964dodge I have to look forward to those periods when things are not too bad. Frankly, the best thing that could happen for me next year is to shed these mortal coils and go home to be with God. I know it will happen some day.
I read once that it is depressed people that have the most realistic look on life and its challenges. I rather agree with that.
I hope you find some peace next. Especially freedom from mood changes.

 

[AvidFan]

Tired. I felt OK during the earlier half of the day. I went for a run, felt OK. Then thought I'd meditate, I got really drowsy and have just never come out of that state. I can't seem to settle to anything, feels like I've just completely crashed. Good job I didn't have any new year plans, as I think I might just go to bed.