. Also you have a point that Emergency Services should be more understanding, at least they should listen as long as I do not attack them physically. I can not stand assumptions, At least if they had the nerve to show at my place and scared me, they should follow up. Sometime ago there was an issue of domestic violence and they followed up. Why they do not follow up now that I am having extremely difficult times, in both cases I am a survivor and now it is worst, due to lack of love and support. Without that nothing can help. No treatment or medication will help only have a job and friends. Nobody can see what I am doing, At least I can pay my bills in full and on time. The disability office have not responded me but since I applied through a third party, verbally they told me that because I have savings I will not qualify which is very disrespectful. At least they should do in written so I can fight. This is the only time in my life that I need help and how come even if they do not pay me can give me avenues to move forward, I am a Canadian Citizen and worked for 19 years, payed my taxes and now that I need help they close me all doors or make things a lot more difficult. THanks again
I wish that I could help you more, zuzu~! I don't know, though, enough about the process there or here, in order to offer much guidance that is practical, or would be of much use^_* // All I can really provide, I'm afraid, is encouragement & support. For I do feel, it is something ("Saying...") that you have managed to work, and to support yourself for all of those years. I truly do, and I hope that you are giving yourself the full & proper credit for that (to me, this is an achievement that is somewhat, 'unfathomable.').
Again, I'm truly sorry to learn or to hear, of your domestic abuse that had happened to you, which resulted in such loss & trauma. I do hope that you've been able to receive some kind of professional help, or treatment for this & even if you do not want it, for the other (mental health, or suicide prevention, etc.) that you will consider it in the future, provided that this has not yet been explored. For it could be a very helpful thing, in my opinion. Which may help to reduce, some of the other strong symptoms you are experiencing now, and have been, for quite some time. . .
I'm presuming you went through a third-party, for the disability claim, because that was your only way you knew how, or that it was the best way for you. You've spoken of some unfavorable findings, or results, in terms of what was expressed to you verbally, and over the phone. MIght it not be possible, and also wisest, to go about seeking either further help in this pursual - or at the very least - a second opinion, of some kind. Never hurts, to double check their work. Especially with something that is so vital, and crucial to your own surivival, or well being.
I understand that you are resistance to treatment now for your health. But perhaps, you could use it, in order to better yourself & to be able to put yourself in a position, where some of those other things you mention, which are so paramount for your happiness & your overall satisfaction in life, can be more easily or feasibly acquired, and attained? Again, I'm just asking or suggesting. As opposed to barking, or ordering. . .
Try to keep fighting! :^) ~mrb*
