How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[1964dodge]

I’m alive. Overwhelmed so I procrastinate. Then I fall even further behind, and I feel more overwhelmed. I’m in a slump.

 

[1964dodge]

I'm doing okay

that is great news, i hope it lasts

mike......

 

[1964dodge]

I’m alright I got paid at work today

payday is always cool

mike...

 

[1964dodge]

I'm struggling on a daily basis, not all the time, but most of it. I feel so sad and alone.

 

[HappyKitty]

is it normal for grieve to make you detached from reality? damn i better find way to regulate after my compassionate keave for work finish.

 

[TragicReality]

Lost and alone wishing i had a close friend

 

[LumberJack]

It hurts now. But it is a good hurt. Earlier it was a chaotic hurt that bounced all over the place and kept getting bigger.

The hurt now is more like the heavy, but moving hurt. As if I had let something go that was unhappy in me. I need to stop fighting, but it’s all I know. What would I do without an opponent? I would just fall over (which is exactly how Aikido works, fyi). And now I’ve started fighting with my habit of fighting.. this could snowball real quick.

People around me say I am so chill, and stable. They don’t know, though. I go home and my demons come out to fight each other. I am in the fray as well. Sometimes I don’t know which way is up. Other times I totally lose interest in the question. Jesus. I sound crazy to myself!

 

[LumberJack]

is it normal for grieve to make you detached from reality? damn i better find way to regulate after my compassionate keave for work finish.

Yes. Grief is intense and sometimes the body will detach from reality to slow things down. Alternatively, the effect of grief is disorienting. When the love of my life died, it felt like my whole world was shattered.

 

[puffymilk]

Not that great as my email provider deleted my accounts without warning. I just applied to 2 jobs using one of those emails and now I don't know if I'll ever hear back from them. I'm changing the emails of some of my accounts now and thankfully some of them are safe, the others, I don't know. This sucks. I heard they won't give back your disabled accounts. I think my accounts do look like spam to them so there's less chance for me to get my account back.

 

[Lane]

Lost and alone wishing i had a close friend

Sorry that you're feeling this way @Reality. You have us here while I know it's not exactly the same as IRL, we care about you.

 

[Lane]

It hurts now. But it is a good hurt. Earlier it was a chaotic hurt that bounced all over the place and kept getting bigger.

The hurt now is more like the heavy, but moving hurt. As if I had let something go that was unhappy in me. I need to stop fighting, but it’s all I know. What would I do without an opponent? I would just fall over (which is exactly how Aikido works, fyi). And now I’ve started fighting with my habit of fighting.. this could snowball real quick.

People around me say I am so chill, and stable. They don’t know, though. I go home and my demons come out to fight each other. I am in the fray as well. Sometimes I don’t know which way is up. Other times I totally lose interest in the question. Jesus. I sound crazy to myself!

I think to keep fighting is good, but taking breaks for self care is also important. It's interesting how we look to the outside world and how we feel inside and when we're alone. Two completely different animals.

 

[Lane]

Feeling a little guilty and strong at same time. I asked my 21 year old daughter to pay a bill. She's working full time again. She has no problem rearranging the kitchen cabinets for her stuff as well as laundry room, I could go on. So I think it's fair. I'm not charging her older brother, who's in school full time and works part time, that's her beef. I could use the help TBH. I don't want to stress over money and things are tight.

 

[Lane]

Lonely and hurting, but distracted from the thought loop with a an audio-book, and some shows I am watching.

I hope you're feeling a bit better seabird. Feeling lonely really stinks. Here for you.

 

[Lane]

I'm struggling on a daily basis, not all the time, but most of it. I feel so sad and alone.

Life can be so hard sometimes Inastorm. I hope that you can find strength and peace.

 

[AvidFan]

I'm doing OK for a Monday. Some changes I've made and using different hypnosis recordings along with mental rest this weekend seems to have eased my chronic tension headache. So far so good, but it's a long day ahead so have to pace myself and not get so confident I start taking on too much. Ease through today, and I'm already over the hump this week.

 

[ClassicsFan]

Ignored.

 

[cymbele]

I’m sad. A coworker who I really like gave his notice. Makes no difference in my personal life but I appreciated his friendship. But I might be moving on also because work is slow.

 

[Windhover]

I hope you're feeling a bit better seabird. Feeling lonely really stinks. Here for you.

Thank you Lane. Hugs back.

Not really, at the moment it's feeling awful. I feel a little better when I'm working and when I'm running.

 

[SillyOldBear]

Thank you Lane. Hugs back.

Not really, at the moment it's feeling awful. I feel a little better when I'm working and when I'm running.

When you are alone it allows you to focus entirely too much on all the bad crap of life.

 

[puffymilk]

Somehow I feel a bit better now