How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Inanimate]

Spent. I could complain, but what would be the point? Most of the world wouldn’t blink, and the few who would don’t have the means to really help me. The only attention and care that I can truly look to is my own. I don’t even have to like myself. I just have to do my job.

On one shoulder, I have a demon telling me “You’re useless.” One the other, an angel is telling me “Do your fucking job.”

 

[Inanimate]

It's hard to keep fighting. I think you're strong to keep going Inanimate.

You may be the one the first people, if not the first, to tell me that.

 

[AmberMarie]

Beginning to feel a tiny thread of hope.

 

[LumberJack]

I’m venting, but I’m still in the same funk for 3 days now. It’s because of my thoughts, nothing more or less. I’m judging myself and anyone around me; either I like them or I don’t. My attitude towards myself is decidedly hostile and I’m low key punishing myself. I need a different hobby.

 

[Windhover]

Feeling the usual sense of being lost but, taking note of the many loops of negative thoughts. There's way to stop them right now but at least there's a little bit of awareness. I'm starting to get past covid or whatever this virus is. Sorry for the bad sentence structure.

 

[Shinzon1]

Paradoxically hopeful and hopeless. Messed up pretty bad at work today and having car trouble but outside of the one work accident I felt like I was catching on to a new position. I don't really know what to think

 

[chiastic_slide]

Having my morning coffee. Feeling conflicted. Could go up or down today.

Huh. I feel like I have an actual choice. I could descend into despair or keep it at bay.

I should try and give myself a little peace.

 

[puffymilk]

I feel okay now, but I still think that this world is a cruel place

 

[full]

Me mouth's burning. Suboxone film. So, crappy atm.

 

[Inastorm]

I'm feeling pretty depressed. I'm missing my ex so much, ive tried reaching out to them but no good. I feel like im floating away on a raft at sea.

 

[Inastorm]

I’m venting, but I’m still in the same funk for 3 days now. It’s because of my thoughts, nothing more or less. I’m judging myself and anyone around me; either I like them or I don’t. My attitude towards myself is decidedly hostile and I’m low key punishing myself. I need a different hobby.

If you could take up a new hobby, what would it be? Ive been getting back into drawing.

 

[Inastorm]

Having my morning coffee. Feeling conflicted. Could go up or down today.

Huh. I feel like I have an actual choice. I could descend into despair or keep it at bay.

I should try and give myself a little peace.

How has your day gone, turned out okay?

 

[chiastic_slide]

How has your day gone, turned out okay?

Yeah, managed to keep my head above water. Focused on little things like doing the dishes and picking up around in the apartment. Gave me a sense of stability. Thanks for asking.

 

[Inastorm]

Paradoxically hopeful and hopeless. Messed up pretty bad at work today and having car trouble but outside of the one work accident I felt like I was catching on to a new position. I don't really know what to think

You sound like a really competent person, maybe the work 'mistake' isn't as bad as you think. I wouldn't give a promotion to someone who hasn't made a mistake. Mistakes are good, as it gives us the opportunity to learn.

 

[Inastorm]

Feeling the usual sense of being lost but, taking note of the many loops of negative thoughts. There's way to stop them right now but at least there's a little bit of awareness. I'm starting to get past covid or whatever this virus is. Sorry for the bad sentence structure.

Sorry to here you have been unwell @seabird. Hope you feel better soon.

 

[Windhover]

Thanks @Inastorm. It's subsiding and I'm sort of content taking it easy. My sense of smell is coming back bit by bit.

What you said about missing your ex and feeling lost at sea... That's how I feel as well. I'm sorry you're in a similar situation.

 

[Gonz]

Lonely.

I’m used to living with my wife and friends of ours. I’m used to not having to be alone. Now she’s dead and they’re gone. There’s nowhere left like there used to be where people would just hang out, so I don’t know what to do or where to go to meet people anymore.

I just want someone to eat dinner or run errands with. I’m restless and bored out of my fucking mind.

 

[SillyOldBear]

Lonely.

I’m used to living with my wife and friends of ours. I’m used to not having to be alone. Now she’s dead and they’re gone. There’s nowhere left like there used to be where people would just hang out, so I don’t know what to do or where to go to meet people anymore.

I just want someone to eat dinner or run errands with. I’m restless and bored out of my fucking mind.

I am sorry you are left so lonely. I have lived alone for over 40 years, but have had work or church contacts. But could not imagine actually living with someone. But with all the loss you have experienced, and the health issues, you must be feeling a huge void. I hope you can find a way to fill it soon.

 

[puffymilk]

Having a headache and painful teeth. Not sure if I'll go to the gym today.

 

[Atreides]

I just feel ready for it all to be over. I don't know if I can do this anymore.