How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Windhover]

Fed up. My leg was feeling better. So today I decided to do my half hour of housework. Just clear some boxes out of the understairs cupboard. Reaching gently for a box I had this explosion of pain in my lower left back and hip area. Hoped it was a spasm of some kind, but after lying on the sofa for 2 hours it's really flaring up. I've completely torn or ripped something somehow, doing the most innocent movement possible and and I'm fucked. I'm in agony trying to walk. So that's my exercise and my real life social life (running group) all gone in one go. Race I've trained months for gone. Not sure what the way back is. I feel sick and like I'm going to burst into tears. For absolute fuck's sake, can my life just not go right for 2 minutes without something ELSE going wrong? Just when I'd sorted the money and the work and a taken a bit of time for myself, bang, something else is fucked. Oh well, I suppose i'll have to catch some good feelings from the pain relief I've got stacked up 😢 I booked a non refundable trip to the coast in a couple of months, the first time I've booked anything in 5 years, chances are I will not be able to walk unaided at this rate.

oh man I'm sorry to hear this AvidFan. I hope this injury resolves itself before long. I was about to write here about waking up feeling poorly when I thought this stupid covid thing was over. Apparently I have still got to cough some more before I'm better. I need to run so bad I am going insane. But then again I already sort of was insane due to the break-up and all.

Sending a hug if it helps.

 

[Windhover]

Betrayed! Alone!! Defeated!!!

what''s happened?

hugs

 

[AmberMarie]

what''s happened?

hugs

Long story short... decisions are being made for me n without my request or input on the wrongful termination case... by my ex. And i am going backwards in my treatment. Really struggling.

 

[Windhover]

I'm so sorry @AmberMarie. Your ex stepped in and made legal decisions for you?! - that's incredible in a bad way. I thought someone would've had to have been given a sign off on a power of attorney for that to happen.

I hope you are safe, and are sticking to caring for yourself, you're not alone.

 

[AmberMarie]

I thought someone would've had to have been given a sign off on a power of attorney for that to happen.

i gave a verbal concent for him to be in contact with the attorney. However, yes, he overstepped n made decisions. i can not do anything about it from in treatment right now.

Yes i'm safe. There is no way not to be here... or at least i haven't found one yet.
Thank you.

 

[Windhover]

You're welcome, and you are very much cared for here @AmberMarie.

 

[cymbele]

Depressed. Lonely. Don’t feel this way much anymore but having been with someone who is judgmental I feel like a peanut. I feel like a big baby complaining about my problems when others have more problems than I. But I wish I had someone to talk to maybe that would help

 

[KM76710]

All the best thoughts and wishes for improvements in your situation @AmberMarie

 

[Inanimate]

I don’t know if you want to get motivated

Not initially, but I guess that comes with the territory of being unmotivated.

If you do feel like motivation would help, I can say what works for me. I got this from @Angie here.

Spoiler: Advice

The technique is to set a timer for 10 minutes, and force yourself to do something that is on your list. After the 10 minutes, you can stop. Chances are that you’ll feel motivated to keep going, though.

That’s a great idea. I’ll consider it.

 

[LumberJack]

Long story short... decisions are being made for me n without my request or input on the wrongful termination case... by my ex. And i am going backwards in my treatment. Really struggling.

F*ck that sucks! Goddam. I would be way above my weight class if I tried to suggest a strategy, but it really seems like your lawyer might be helpful in setting up guardrails against your Ex making decisions. That’s just low🤬

 

[KM76710]

Depressed. Lonely. Don’t feel this way much anymore but having been with someone who is judgmental I feel like a peanut. I feel like a big baby complaining about my problems when others have more problems than I. But I wish I had someone to talk to maybe that would help

I wish you had that person in person. I am glad that you know you can express all you like here with us.

 

[LumberJack]

Depressed. Lonely. Don’t feel this way much anymore but having been with someone who is judgmental I feel like a peanut. I feel like a big baby complaining about my problems when others have more problems than I. But I wish I had someone to talk to maybe that would help

Hi. I’m a person who does the that, too. I compare my problems to those of others and I feel like I’m taking everything for granted. I understand, conceptually, that there’s no way to quantify misfortune. It still seems like I shouldn’t complain about losing my shoes around someone who has lost a foot, to borrow from an old saying.

We are all in the human condition together. Some people have better luck than others, but we all have things fall apart sometimes, and later they come back together. I’m finding out that I have to actively work to get things together, and then they go to sh*t again.

Anyone who takes it upon themselves to tell you their judgements on you is probably doing some sketchy things that they want to hide. Why would anyone need to go around sharing unsolicited opinions if they were cleaning up their own act? It’s so much easier to criticize someone than it is to look in the mirror and see how we are doing the same thing.

 

[chiastic_slide]

Exhausted. Brain is broken. The autism. Too bright yesterday, too many roads to cross with too many cars and people.

But I remember it was very nice too be out in nature, before the brain broke. The grass such a deep green and the sky so deeply blue. Very fun to look for signs of a beaver.

 

[puffymilk]

Starting the day with a good feeling

 

[Lane]

Depressed. Lonely. Don’t feel this way much anymore but having been with someone who is judgmental I feel like a peanut. I feel like a big baby complaining about my problems when others have more problems than I. But I wish I had someone to talk to maybe that would help

Youre entitled to all your feelings S. I do hope you feel better and treat yourself with kindness.

 

[Lane]

Thinking of you @AmberMarie during this trying time. Im glad that you're here even though things are rough for you right now.

 

[Lane]

I'm counting down the days before I'm off from work for 4 days. My fiance is flying in but was a bit upset with me, although he'd never show meanness. It was over me not getting my passport quick enough and to me he's making a mountain out of a molehill. But, hopefully that's all behind us.

 

[LumberJack]

Why would anyone need to go around sharing unsolicited opinions if they were cleaning up their own act? It’s so much easier to criticize someone than it is to look in the mirror and see how we are doing the same thing.

I just wanted to add that I know this, because I have been the one distributing ideas on how everyone but me should behave. It took me a LOT of work to learn to turn that around into the question of what am I projecting. It still comes up from time to time as any old habit may. My go-to response now is to focus on getting my own house in order. Ex: if I'm ready to complain about someone else being disorganized and cluttered, I turn around and there is not a free square inch on any of the surfaces in my room. I want to tell someone else because I am such an expert. When I start taking responsibility (well, at least more than I was) for my own house to be in order, I suddenly have less of a need to share my opinions on other people's foibles.

 

[LumberJack]

Exhausted. Brain is broken. The autism. Too bright yesterday, too many roads to cross with too many cars and people.

But I remember it was very nice too be out in nature, before the brain broke. The grass such a deep green and the sky so deeply blue. Very fun to look for signs of a beaver.

Wow I do this too. I'm usually fine up to a point, but beyond that I'm done and I need to escape. Not AS here, but am neurodivergent

 

[puffymilk]

Excited