How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[AvidFan]

Strangely OK. After a very rough start to the day, I rallied, got through the first half of the meetings, and did OK. By the time I got to the last 2 meetings (online, finishing 8.30pm), I was actually feeling normal. Given my history of late, that is quite astonishing.

Sometimes adrenaline carries me through days like this where I've had poor sleep, then I get a crash. But then again, adrenaline usually throws me into a state of panic, and I feel relatively calm. Also had some progress on house front.

So a lot better than this morning.

 

[KM76710]

Not great. Another night's broken sleep, stupid early wake up and inability to doze back off, resulting in early start to an already long, stretching, horrible day of obligations.

That is one I understand from last night here between the mosquitos that are abundant in the area and congestion waking me up. I feel bad that those that do fit the insomnia thread and have bad sleep regularly.

 

[AnHeroTransGirl]

Horrible.

 

[total eclipse]

Nothing matters

 

[Windhover]

I've gone past ending into nothing, except sadness.

 

[chiastic_slide]

Got into the shower early in morning, Had breakfast. Went for a little walk through the woods. Good way to start the day, supposedly. But the days doesn’t get any better really.

Keep muttering that I want to die. But I guess I’ll go to the store and get ingredients for a daal. Don’t know why I’m still doing anything.

 

[Lane]

Reevaluating a relationship in my life. I need to learn how to live with it. Sad

 

[Lane]

Got into the shower early in morning, Had breakfast. Went for a little walk through the woods. Good way to start the day, supposedly. But the days doesn’t get any better really.

Keep muttering that I want to die. But I guess I’ll go to the store and get ingredients for a daal. Don’t know why I’m still doing anything.

Sounds like a good start to the day @chiastic_slide. I do hope those suicidal feelings lessen. Im going to Google daal now, is it Indian?

 

[chiastic_slide]

Sounds like a good start to the day @chiastic_slide. I do hope those suicidal feelings lessen. Im going to Google daal now, is it Indian?

Thank you. Yeah, Indian. Trying something new.

 

[Windhover]

Poorly. I'm not as in control as I should be, as I need to be.

 

[chiastic_slide]

A bit better. Hope to go to sleep early. Looking forward to tomorrows little walk through the woods.

 

[AvidFan]

Poorly. I'm not as in control as I should be, as I need to be.

Hugs @seabird ❤️

 

[Bergerac]

Great

 

[SillyOldBear]

I f*cking HATE life!!!!!!!!

 

[AvidFan]

Absolutely fed up. After days of stress I finally get the roofer to come out to fix their crap work on the gutter. The worker goes up a ladder, blathers on about something while the owner goes on and says it's all being sorted. They go away, it rains, and the bastard gutter is still leaking. I am really at a loss what to do now. Could get them out again but looks like they're incompetent idiots. The saga continues.

 

[PrincessPure]

Last night I cried my eyes out because I decided to move to the dorm after realising my parents are going out of their way and selling some gold to send me money. It’s ridiculous but not renting out my own house makes me feel like such a loser. I see kids who only started buying latest models iPhones and iPads and traveling only after they got the scholarship and moved to the dorm and I always looked down on them. I thought who are they kidding? Doesn’t matter how expensive their phone is everyone knows they live at the dorm.
Now I guess karma is a bitch, imagine I have that mindset and am gonna treat myself with as much hatred now.

 

[Inastorm]

Poorly. I'm not as in control as I should be, as I need to be.

Sounds like trying to push something along that needs to stand still or move slowly for a while, If you shake yourself, it probably wont help. Be kind to that part of you that needs compassion. Your very strong.

 

[Inastorm]

Last night I cried my eyes out because I decided to move to the dorm after realising my parents are going out of their way and selling some gold to send me money. It’s ridiculous but not renting out my own house makes me feel like such a loser. I see kids who only started buying latest models iPhones and iPads and traveling only after they got the scholarship and moved to the dorm and I always looked down on them. I thought who are they kidding? Doesn’t matter how expensive their phone is everyone knows they live at the dorm.
Now I guess karma is a bitch, imagine I have that mindset and am gonna treat myself with as much hatred now.

Sounds like you're feeling an element of shame. I dont think you need to be, its great you have had this experience as to learn something and maybe shift a value/ point of view you had before. These opportunities for personal growth dont come around often, embrace it.

 

[Inastorm]

I f*cking HATE life!!!!!!!!

Oh no, i hope things get better for you.

 

[AvidFan]

I f*cking HATE life!!!!!!!!

I feel the same currently.