had a nap and ended up crying. Not a lot and not terrible. Needed to happen, tho. I have a habit of stuffing everything until I explode, which makes me real fun as a coworker, I'm sure. So, I'm trying to let things out in a more timely fashion.
However, now my nerves are on fire. Like every thought in my head is about how stupid and inept I am, and anyone who doesn't see through that shit is probably just as screwy as I am. It's really uncomfortable but I'm putting mindfulness to work. When I notice I'm beating myself up, I just sort of label it and then focus on my breath. Sometimes that sounds wrong to me, like I'm just escaping into an empty head. Then again, I wasn't doing anything productive by beating myself up, and stopping that is going to save me a lot of mental anguish. Also the practice of coming back to the breath becomes stronger over time, so there is a utility there.