How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[1964dodge]

Sad to hear of the loss of friends, that is always a tough time especially with it built on other issues. You and the family are in my thoughts and prayers. Hopefully better twists of fate are in the future.

thanks km

mike....

 

[Windhover]

Big day tomorrow; I have hope things are planned out pretty well. I'm fine right now, but it's fake and very temporary. I am worried about my mental health once I'm alone again. I know htis all need to go one step at a ltime and I'm not doubting my decisions. Just aware of my vulnerability to too much quiet. I'm tired and my mind is all over the place.

 

[LumberJack]

so - then I got a sudden burst of energy - like "screw the stairs, I'm climbing the damn walls," type of energy. I went to get groceries but just some produce, mostly veggies. They had green bananas, too! It's been since around March or so that I've seen more than just slightly green at the tips. I can only get one at a time because they will no longer be green in 24 hrs. But these were fully green, just the way I like them, lol - where the peel is challenging to remove because it doesn't even want to flex on the way down. I also got a pizza as a reward. It will be 2 meals at least. In the pizza place I was still bouncing off the walls. I could not be still even while standing up. I started singing along to the song on the speakers and didn't notice until another patron walked by and gave me a look. A look that said, "I think you're on meth, holmes." Well, I was stone cold sober but I skipped my afternoon dose of adderall, and paradoxically I'm calm and collected when I do take that med. Even more silly - I look like I'm speed... when I'm NOT on speed! I also seem to write quickly and go on tangents.