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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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Confused, mad, annoyed, disappointed and I guess maybe a bit sad, hard as that last one is for me to admit. Doing my best to stay hopeful about things though, really needing for there to be some much better days soon.
Wishing the best for everyone here, always
Wishing the best for everyone here, always
Angry at the lack of justice and fairness in the world.
Angry at the way things are, and how they should be but never will.
Very sad that the main reason I exist is because I'm too afraid to attempt again. Living with that day after day makes me feel like pathetic garbage, even if it's not my fault. What a stupid, sad way to live. I want so badly to leave this world
Angry at the way things are, and how they should be but never will.
Very sad that the main reason I exist is because I'm too afraid to attempt again. Living with that day after day makes me feel like pathetic garbage, even if it's not my fault. What a stupid, sad way to live. I want so badly to leave this world
in my deepest heart i believe mankind will make it. i believe in gene roddenberry's universe where all hunger, war, and disease will be eliminated. i believe people will be kind to others and care about personal growth and not greed. i believe in the star trek world and it will happen, i believe that with all of my heart. of course it had to have a huge world war to happen and a lot of death and hardship. i hope it doesn't come to that but a huge world war or coming a little at a time i know it will come. this is why life is worth living, our way unto that voyage. i'm also sure it won't happen in my lifetime and may take centuries but it will happen
mike.....
mike.....
I got nothing really done today - it's a heat wave here and in our apartment we just have one portable air conditioner. I usually write in the study but it's too warm. Also today is a work out day but it's too hot outside to walk 15 minutes to our gym.
Trying to forgive myself. I don't have to be productive every single day.
Trying to forgive myself. I don't have to be productive every single day.
The idea of social support, I maybe late but I figured its best to hang with people like be it if it means strangers that allows you to be yourself so sorta I wont end up blaming myself for the way I express things. I find strangers to be better and relateable to give me many fresh perspective, especially to whatever I am confuse about than surrounding with someone I know as they are not the one I trust to be loyal and keep confidences that will only escalate the situation further especially if that situation involved anxiety and they will definitely give you many self-doubt. Toxic shaming gotta stop.
I am not good today. The tension in the silence has begun to take be more than resentment. I keep having to remind myself do not ask to talk, because they said they do not like talking about feelings. I keep trying to hold my confidence and yet refrain from interaction which would imply judgement. At some point I'm gonna start laughing at the absurdity. That has to wait.
Kind of relieved but also frustrated. Got up and my laptop wouldn't start up, the power light kept winking out and couldn't draw enough power to run. I thought something internal had gone wrong and I was in danger of losing work (week since last backup 😲). However I then tried swapping out the transformer brick as I'd bought a replacement a month ago. Certain enough, looks like getting a cheap replacement off Amazon was not a cost effective measure, it must have failed somehow as no problem with the old one. Currently busy backing everything up just in case!
Feeling uncertain now. Once the laptop was charged a bit and working I swapped transformers and the cheap Amazon replacement appears to be working now. Thinking back, I think what happened was when I shut down last night, a document save nag came up but I'd closed the lid before seeing it, and somehow it didn't go to sleep/hibernate after inactivity, and the battery totally drained all night. The battery is a funny one - sometimes on startup I'll get a BIOS message saying battery is critically empty - even though charged to 100% on shutdown. The machine forces hibernation if on battery only, but battery checks/tests all come up fine. Maybe I should think about the replacement but I'll persevere for now and see if I can get more life out of the old thing 🤷
in my deepest heart i believe mankind will make it. i believe in gene roddenberry's universe where all hunger, war, and disease will be eliminated. i believe people will be kind to others and care about personal growth and not greed. i believe in the star trek world and it will happen, i believe that with all of my heart. of course it had to have a huge world war to happen and a lot of death and hardship. i hope it doesn't come to that but a huge world war or coming a little at a time i know it will come. this is why life is worth living, our way unto that voyage. i'm also sure it won't happen in my lifetime and may take centuries but it will happen
mike.....
mike.....
in my deepest heart i believe mankind will make it. i believe in gene roddenberry's universe where all hunger, war, and disease will be eliminated. i believe people will be kind to others and care about personal growth and not greed. i believe in the star trek world and it will happen, i believe that with all of my heart. of course it had to have a huge world war to happen and a lot of death and hardship. i hope it doesn't come to that but a huge world war or coming a little at a time i know it will come. this is why life is worth living, our way unto that voyage. i'm also sure it won't happen in my lifetime and may take centuries but it will happen
mike.....
mike.....