How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Lane]

I had one of those days today where I started with a small triumph and nearly ended up with a major disaster. Learned something new and had done well, then suddenly couldn't do anything right. If there's one thing I hate it's wacky random keyboard shortcuts where somehow you've pressed Fn instead of shift and somehow activate something that totally breaks whatever you're working on at the time 😒🤦‍♀️

Aww, sorry to hear it was one of those days Avid. Hope tomorrow is a better one.

 

[Gonz]

@Lady Wolfshead, I hope you can get past your guilt at your brother’s situation. Aside from being unhelpful, it’s also unfounded. You didn’t fail him, your mother and the system failed you both. I know you already know that, and you’ve been told by plenty of others, but maybe the more people tell you the more you’ll accept it.

I’ve seen how you talk about him, how much you love him and how highly you think of him. That’s enough, that‘s all he needs from you.

I wish I had that sort of relationship with my family.

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

@Lady Wolfshead, I hope you can get past your guilt at your brother’s situation. Aside from being unhelpful, it’s also unfounded. You didn’t fail him, your mother and the system failed you both. I know you already know that, and you’ve been told by plenty of others, but maybe the more people tell you the more you’ll accept it.

I’ve seen how you talk about him, how much you love him and how highly you think of him. That’s enough, that‘s all he needs from you.

I wish I had that sort of relationship with my family.

Thanks so much Gonz. I know it's probably hard for people to see how I can blame myself, but if they actually envision being that age you FEEL like an adult as a teenager and I did have the choice to go into foster care. However... it really does help and have a cumulative effect when people hear of my situation and respond and say that it was the system that failed us and not me personally. I do agree on an intellectual level but obviously really wish things had been better, but I realize they may not have gotten better and that things can ALWAYS get worse no matter how bad the situation seemed.

And I will just keep being supportive and encouraging to him. Obviously his job right now is just healing and beating the cancer.

Thanks so much for your kind words

 

[Baywasp]

Trying not to fall into apathy.

 

[Windhover]

Sinking into si again.

 

[nicktheundoer]

Get well soon Nick.

Thank you very much Lane.....

 

[nicktheundoer]

Absolutely horrible

☹️☹️

 

[PrincessPure]

Talk to me.
Tell me that I am very pretty. Make me feel pretty.
Tell me that I will feel OK soon and this feeling will pass.TT

 

[Astrid78]

Sinking into si again.

 

[1Lefty]

Sinking into si again.

peace

 

[Bergerac]

so tired, I'm dozing off

 

[AvidFan]

I'm having a better today - might have something to do with working at proper times instead of keeping the midnight oil burning. I've managed to get my head around my new project and it's starting to make more sense. so I've had a productive day today so far. I've also had a couple of work related calls on my other job so it's been a nice balance of screen work and talking to people today. I much prefer voice calls as it means I don't have to worry about looking like an overworked, about-to-keel-over zombie on someone else's screen! I'm sleeping but still waking up a bit early but I'll take that any day over waking up at 5am. 9.30 is a civilised time to rise from the dead, I think! 🧟

So all seems good for now. Much love to everyone, especially if you need it right now ❤️❤️❤️

 

[1Lefty]

Relieved, but sad
An intense cyber/phone relationship ended, by mutual decision, calmly, kindly

peace

 

[foreverforgotten]

Racing thoughts

 

[1964dodge]

Absolutely horrible

i'm sorry that you feel so horrible right now, i hope things can start to improve for you soon

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

@MisterBGone yes I think he has a mental block about attempting things in case he fails, plus maybe a fear of success which wouldn't fit his self-image. I've struggled with the same thing for years and have really only just figured things out.
But you're right and in many ways he IS a success and I've pointed that out but he just thinks the financial success is due to his wife and his friend who handles their money. He also did a great job raising his son with plenty of love and bonding and support. I mean they have a lot of money but I really notice that does not equate to happiness for him. I wish he had a deep sense of his inner value.

if he doesn't want to go back to school and he is ok financially there are other options. do you think he would like to do some kind of voluntter work that can make a difference. you said he was smart he could possibly start a charity to fill a need in his area., just an idea

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Relieved, but sad
An intense cyber/phone relationship ended, by mutual decision, calmly, kindly

peace

i'm sorry that your relationship ended

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Racing thoughts

i hope your thoughts can calm down soon

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Sinking into si again.

i hope you can continue to be the strong person that you are and eventually be happy again

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Talk to me.
Tell me that I am very pretty. Make me feel pretty.
Tell me that I will feel OK soon and this feeling will pass.TT