How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[KM76710]

I've resorted to using a dating site again hoping for something better than dudes wanting to get laid and extremely insecure or off-putting people...perhaps that's too much to ask for though, we'll see. It's a shame that I've gotten lonely enough to resort to that.

Nothing shameful in the least is wanting to have people and things in your life that can bring you comfort and a bit of happiness. I hope all goes well for you. Everybody should be able to have good things come to them that they want in life.

 

[AvidFan]

Awake. Went to bed at 2am due to a website glitch I was trying to sort out with a colleague (sent them screen videos with voiceovers of what I was doing to replicate an issue that they couldn't understand when I explained it, and they were still responding at 2am - this is what happens when you work with people in all Time Zones!). Anyway the glitch was fixed but my frazzled brain decided 5 hours of sleep was quite enough and kicked me awake just past 7am so here I am. At least there's no commute. I can get on with something, but gosh I would like to just sleep like a regular person one day! Unfortunately I hear you sleep less as you age - just my luck! It's always fun seeing articles entitle "The less you sleep, the shorter your life!" but I seem to buck the trend in other ways so maybe I'll find it just as hard to enter perma-sleep at 100 and will be tossing and turning on my death bed refusing to slumber off this mortal coil....

So for today - working on comparisons between developing AIs and ChatGTP-4 outputs - made more interesting by rumours they've made GPT-4 far less capable to roll it out to free users without blowing their servers up. Could be an interesting day! At least I have a job where I can work as much or as little as I want (at least until Friday, when I go back to the other job for a bit!)

 

[ShabbaRanked]

I still want to die<mod edit method>

 

[AvidFan]

I still want to die but cant quite tie the rope

😢

 

[AvidFan]

I hate that kind of thing. I've never had anyone to handle those home emergencies but myself.

Same, and gosh have there been some over the years. Lots of times with boilers not boiling in winter, but one memorable occasion where my upstairs bathroom flooded and consequently ruined the entire kitchen underneath it... Waking up to your crockery floating around in a paddling pool, that was a morning alright!

 

[ShabbaRanked]

Same, and gosh have there been some over the years. Lots of times with boilers not boiling in winter, but one memorable occasion where my upstairs bathroom flooded and consequently ruined the entire kitchen underneath it... Waking up to your crockery floating around in a paddling pool, that was a morning alright![/Q

Same, and gosh have there been some over the years. Lots of times with boilers not boiling in winter, but one memorable occasion where my upstairs bathroom flooded and consequently ruined the entire kitchen underneath it... Waking up to your crockery floating around in a paddling pool, that was a morning alright!

the kitchn is boiling! the stairs are flooded I see no way out. I stay become of fear.

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

Had a good visit with my friend today

 

[PrincessPure]

I need a way to relieve my chest pain. It aches everyday all the time. It is not related to a physical health condition, but completely related to my f**ked emotional state.

 

[Holding my breath]

George Alagiah’s (BBC reporter) final thoughts:

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

I need a way to relieve my chest pain. It aches everyday all the time. It is not related to a physical health condition, but completely related to my f**ked emotional state.

I had this when my stomach was emptying too slowly, so it can be tied to a physical issue. But I hope you can get help for the psychological stuff.

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

I've had an interesting realization in the past few days. I am someone who literally needs something scientific/logical or at least concrete to focus on every day (not just my creative side), to keep from going insane. I was a science major my first few years at university, then switched to social science (psychology - but still using the scientific method), and creative writing.

I always thought I wanted to just write fiction, and just had to do my day job to survive. I resented the idea of returning to college at age 54 and still needing a day job, even though I am interested in the field. Now I realize I *need* it. For me, although creativity *can* be healing, it's not enough on its own.

I've read articles that say focusing on scientific or mathematical problems actually bypasses the emotion centre of the brain, so that it can be a way of escaping depression and overthinking. I suspect it turns off the Default Mode Network in the same way that meditation does.

 

[AvidFan]

I've had an interesting realization in the past few days. I am someone who literally needs something scientific/logical or at least concrete to focus on every day (not just my creative side), to keep from going insane. I was a science major my first few years at university, then switched to social science (psychology - but still using the scientific method), and creative writing.

I always thought I wanted to just write fiction, and just had to do my day job to survive. I resented the idea of returning to college at age 54 and still needing a day job, even though I am interested in the field. Now I realize I *need* it. For me, although creativity *can* be healing, it's not enough on its own.

I've read articles that say focusing on scientific or mathematical problems actually bypasses the emotion centre of the brain, so that it can be a way of escaping depression and overthinking. I suspect it turns off the Default Mode Network in the same way that meditation does.

Interesting. My current remote job requires hyperfocus to a degree (working on language problems with some complexity). I find it rather soothing as I am just focused on the task and find my mind doesn't wander nearly so much as when I'm listening to music or watching a film etc.

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

Interesting. My current remote job requires hyperfocus to a degree (working on language problems with some complexity). I find it rather soothing as I am just focused on the task and find my mind doesn't wander nearly so much as when I'm listening to music or watching a film etc.

Yeah that sounds similar - working on something that requires analysis and logic. I think these tasks may help with emotional regulation. There's something neurologists call "cognitive reserve" that helps people to be more resilient and have neuroplasticity.

https://www.health.harvard.edu/mind-and-mood/what-is-cognitive-reserve

 

[HappyKitty]

Argued with my mum abt wanting to walk. At least my aunts with me. 🥺

 

[nicktheundoer]

I still want to die<mod edit method>

Stay..The world needs you

 

[nicktheundoer]

I need a way to relieve my chest pain. It aches everyday all the time. It is not related to a physical health condition, but completely related to my f**ked emotional state.

Did you visit the doctor?

 

[nicktheundoer]

great welcome home gift from mum and aunties😺

View attachment 63534

😊😊

 

[nicktheundoer]

Had a good visit with my friend today

Wow..

 

[1964dodge]

This b*tch classmate is 13 years older than me and has told a guy that likes me that "my makeup and outfits all similar that of a prost*tute and my teeth are so yellow, men shouldnt try to kiss me"
Pretty sure she is pressed that the guy likes me instead of her but what makes a fucking 37 year old woman SO mean in a class of younger people.

that is horrible for her to act that way

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

tired of pain

i hear you barb i really understand. my pain is usually controlable but sometimes it does take a long time to come down. maybe you can try different things like otc or other things as long as they are legal. if you want to talk later feel free to use my inbox

mike......