How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[cymbele]

Lonely

Hugs. I’m with you there tonight

 

[AvidFan]

thank you so much @AvidFan . i have pain spikes every night but not too many severe ones. thanks to SF i have learned some good coping skills. i know for a fact that the pain will go down so the pain doesn't usually affect me emotionally. i used to be suicidal every time i get a bad spike but now with the exception of rare cases i get only mild passing thoughts

mike.....

Glad you are coping. It's a bit the same with my sleep, I try not to force it, I know sooner or later I'll sleep, sooner or later I'll feel energised again. I hope it comes down for you and thanks again for the Santa! 😊

 

[Searchingforhope]

Lonely

 

[Searchingforhope]

in terrible pain right now. at a 9 on a 10 scale but at least it came down from a 10 on the 10 scale. i can't do much more for it. i have taken double the doses within an hour, which is the most i can take and stay safe, plus my wife put the mmj salve on my legs. it will keep getting lower and by the time most people see this i'll be normal, a 5. it's funny my wife asked if she could do anything, less than a minuet later she said except that lol. mood is still pretty good though

mike

I’m sorry the pain is so bad. I hope by now it has faded a little.

 

[1964dodge]

I’m sorry the pain is so bad. I hope by now it has faded a little.

thank you it has come down to about 7 should be back to 5 soon

mike....

 

[AvidFan]

Hungry. I've had a sudden intense craving for a quorn bacon butty with red sauce but the supermarket doesn't open for another 5 hours 😱

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

Up after just a few hours asleep, with anxiety and stomach acid. Still at least I'll probably be able to get back to sleep in a few hours. It's better than waking up at 5am honestly.

 

[AvidFan]

Hangry. After waiting 5 hours for the supermarket to open I got there to find it already stuffed with Christmas shoppers trying to pile their trolleys high in preparation for the inevitable scarcity when the shops close for a day or two late December. I'd gone there basically for the quorn bacon and some baps. I didn't need anything else. I got the baps, happy I resisted the white one as white bread gives me bloating.

But could I find the plant based bacon? After scanning the entire freezer section. No. The veggie snack row - oooh something that looks like bacon but it was plant based pastrami so I put it back. Then the whole plant based meat section - burgers, sausages, burger meat, mince, southern fried this and that, ball shaped plant-based morsels, in fact plant based and meat free products of astonishing variety and indeed of every description imaginable - apart from plant based bacon. I double checked all 3 sections, meanwhile Christmas covid carriers were en masse gathering around me clearly intent to shed virus to all and sundry and especially me, so I grabbed package of plant based hot dogs to go with the baps and made a quick exit along with a few useful items like multivitamins and toilet roll. Somehow came to £22 and I didn't even get what I wanted but apparently if I spend enough every week up to Christmas I will get some "free" vouchers, I could go on about that but I don't think I'm up to it right now.

Anyway the hot dogs were OK but I still feel disappointed, Having been awake since 3am I'm in this horrible space where I'm too tired to do anything, yet my body won't sleep, and even if I did try to sleep I would probably end up waking up at 10pm and have managed to turn myself into a complete night owl in the space of 2 days. I wish my bloody stupid brain and body would get what's right for them and do sleep like a cat does sleep, unfortunately I have the genes of some creature that rarely sleeps and exists in a state of frazzled perma-conscious agitation that has probably gone extinct as a result.

Now I'm wishing I'd just said "*** it" and bought that huge box of bisciouts for £3.99 after all 🤦‍♂️

 

[Livelife]

Lonely

I get it, Big hug to you

 

[Livelife]

Up after just a few hours asleep, with anxiety and stomach acid. Still at least I'll probably be able to get back to sleep in a few hours. It's better than waking up at 5am honestly.

I hope you got some further sleep time.

 

[HappyKitty]

Ironically, I know I got issues with palpitations but ... anxiety doesnt hurt my heart or tightened my chest so painfully, it just gives me stomachache i could say.😂

 

[Livelife]

Several days in a row of not sleeping past 3 am. It really affects mood, energy, and desire to do any projects. Regardless of doing yoga and walking and hydrating/eating enough.

 

[Lane]

I feel better than when I woke up. I put away all the fall decorations and put out the little tree for Christmas. It was in the attic and I don't like going up there, I feel like the steps are dangerous and there's just so much crap up there.

If I can get through my Sunday without being depressed, winner.

 

[Lane]

Several days in a row of not sleeping past 3 am. It really affects mood, energy, and desire to do any projects. Regardless of doing yoga and walking and hydrating/eating enough.

I hope your sleep gets back on track and mood can improve @Livelife.

 

[Lane]

Hangry. After waiting 5 hours for the supermarket to open I got there to find it already stuffed with Christmas shoppers trying to pile their trolleys high in preparation for the inevitable scarcity when the shops close for a day or two late December. I'd gone there basically for the quorn bacon and some baps. I didn't need anything else. I got the baps, happy I resisted the white one as white bread gives me bloating.

But could I find the plant based bacon? After scanning the entire freezer section. No. The veggie snack row - oooh something that looks like bacon but it was plant based pastrami so I put it back. Then the whole plant based meat section - burgers, sausages, burger meat, mince, southern fried this and that, ball shaped plant-based morsels, in fact plant based and meat free products of astonishing variety and indeed of every description imaginable - apart from plant based bacon. I double checked all 3 sections, meanwhile Christmas covid carriers were en masse gathering around me clearly intent to shed virus to all and sundry and especially me, so I grabbed package of plant based hot dogs to go with the baps and made a quick exit along with a few useful items like multivitamins and toilet roll. Somehow came to £22 and I didn't even get what I wanted but apparently if I spend enough every week up to Christmas I will get some "free" vouchers, I could go on about that but I don't think I'm up to it right now.

Anyway the hot dogs were OK but I still feel disappointed, Having been awake since 3am I'm in this horrible space where I'm too tired to do anything, yet my body won't sleep, and even if I did try to sleep I would probably end up waking up at 10pm and have managed to turn myself into a complete night owl in the space of 2 days. I wish my bloody stupid brain and body would get what's right for them and do sleep like a cat does sleep, unfortunately I have the genes of some creature that rarely sleeps and exists in a state of frazzled perma-conscious agitation that has probably gone extinct as a result.

Now I'm wishing I'd just said "*** it" and bought that huge box of bisciouts for £3.99 after all 🤦‍♂️

I luv plant based bacon...I make "blt's, yummy 😋.

 

[AvidFan]

Several days in a row of not sleeping past 3 am. It really affects mood, energy, and desire to do any projects. Regardless of doing yoga and walking and hydrating/eating enough.

I hope your sleep gets better (as I do mine!). Yesterday I was so tired I went to bed at 8pm as I couldn't keep awake, but then woke up at 3am not feeling refreshed but unable to go back to sleep. I'm currently totally useless in any capacity, I can't think, can't concentrate, feel anxious/depressed and miserable am just trying to hang on until at least 10pm and go to bed then and try to get back into some kind of normal sleep routine, if I go to bed too early I'll wake up at some silly time again and I can't afford to do that on a work day. I'm just trying to do restful things but watching things ironically keeps making me go into a sleep nod - of course if I wanted to sleep that wouldn't be happening 😢

Wishing you a proper and restful long sleep soon!

 

[tearsinmycoffee]

Sleepy.

 

[Livelife]

I hope your sleep gets better (as I do mine!). Yesterday I was so tired I went to bed at 8pm as I couldn't keep awake, but then woke up at 3am not feeling refreshed but unable to go back to sleep. I'm currently totally useless in any capacity, I can't think, can't concentrate, feel anxious/depressed and miserable am just trying to hang on until at least 10pm and go to bed then and try to get back into some kind of normal sleep routine, if I go to bed too early I'll wake up at some silly time again and I can't afford to do that on a work day. I'm just trying to do restful things but watching things ironically keeps making me go into a sleep nod - of course if I wanted to sleep that wouldn't be happening 😢

Wishing you a proper and restful long sleep soon!

Thank you. I understand the getting in bed too early. Dark early tricks the mind too but doesn't aid extending the number of actual sleep hours. And I'm the same, once I'm up in the wee hours I don't/can't go back to sleep. You said it well, concentration interference and miserable/anxious I think directly relates to the sleep loss. And I can't imagine having to get up and go to work daily after a superficial or short sleep night. Tv used to do the same to me when I started having sleep issue, made me nod off. Now it doesn't have much of that effect any longer... glad you are trying to do restful things to assist the process.

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

I hope you got some further sleep time.

Actually I did get back to sleep, and slept until 11am. So for once I actually must have got 9 full hours of sleep

 

[Honeymoon]

Now I know that I will never be unhurt and not angry. I want to feel hurt, and I want the anger to always boil inside me. I want to be unwanted, rejected and alone forever.