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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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Since the middle of November, polyneuropathy has permanently destroyed my life. I can never work again, never date again, never hike again, never go to a show again, never play guitar or bass again, all I can do is stare at the walls and wish for death. It’s only a matter of time before I end it myself. I have the right.
Had a tough yr. mum got sepsis last jan & my dickhead brother moved back from the states & stopped everyone seeing her. She now has dementia & I haven’t seen her since March as my brother has taken over everything.
I’ve been having falls & fell top to bottom backwards down our stairs breaking 2 ribs & fracturing 3 vertebrae in my spine. I spent 2 wks in hospital. I was falling 4 to 5 times a day. Then there were major hostilities from my kids & they moved out. In oct my hubby had a stroke & when I was leaving the hospital I fell down 7 concrete stairs. A man helped me up but when he’d gone I realised he’d taken £500 from my purse that a friend had collected for a friends baby’s headstone.
It’s just my hubby & I 24/7 & it’s so hard.& I’m so lonely Physically he’s ok but cognitively & memory wise he’s not good. It’s like having an aggressive toddler in the house.
I’ve reached the point that I’ve had enough & am making plans, but I need it to be permanent & I don’t know the most efficient way to go about it. I’m totally lost!
There’s nothing anyone can do either but thanks for listening!
I’ve been having falls & fell top to bottom backwards down our stairs breaking 2 ribs & fracturing 3 vertebrae in my spine. I spent 2 wks in hospital. I was falling 4 to 5 times a day. Then there were major hostilities from my kids & they moved out. In oct my hubby had a stroke & when I was leaving the hospital I fell down 7 concrete stairs. A man helped me up but when he’d gone I realised he’d taken £500 from my purse that a friend had collected for a friends baby’s headstone.
It’s just my hubby & I 24/7 & it’s so hard.& I’m so lonely Physically he’s ok but cognitively & memory wise he’s not good. It’s like having an aggressive toddler in the house.
I’ve reached the point that I’ve had enough & am making plans, but I need it to be permanent & I don’t know the most efficient way to go about it. I’m totally lost!
There’s nothing anyone can do either but thanks for listening!
I'm glad I was able to spend time with someone and wasn't alone yesterday. However, I don't know how he's going to react when he finds out I have psoriasis pretty much all over my body. I don't know whether he'll accept me or stop finding me attractive, and it's making me keep my distance a bit. Although, so is he it seems. He hasn't said all that much to me since yesterday, even though he said he couldn't wait to see me again when he got home. So I don't know what to think and I don't know when I should tell him, if this even works out. I'd like to have invited him to New Year's Eve, but I don't think we're that close yet for me to do so, which is unfortunate. But at least I got some human interaction, right? I'm still thankful for that.
Relieved. I put a wash on and when I went to get it out, the doorhandle broke so my soggy washing was trapped in the machine until at least Tuesday. I had visions of ripping out the back of the machine and trying to get my clothes that way, or writing off the clothes until some expensive engineer came and did incomprehensible things to get the door open. But I did a search and found a Youtube video with an ingenious method of opening it with string. I wondered if I had any string and I didn't - but I was amazed when I looked in my knick knack box for a shoelace and found a long one which did the job! I wasn't sure it would work at first but I finally managed it. I've even been brave enough to put the second lot of clothes in, after testing the method again. But I think after this I'm going to get the Laundry Heap app and have my laundry washed and ironed for me (my ironing lady moved away so I've been making do with clothes that don't wrinkle too much for a while!). Phew!
