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How Are You Feeling Right Now?

Shit, crap, shit, crap, shit, crap, shit crap

I hate it when my husband makes me feel this way. I must remain silent, subservient and respectful. I must be seen and not heard. I must listen and follow instructions, do as I’m told and do not share my opinion. I am always wrong and he is always right. His way is better than my way. I must remember the rules and only speak if it is truly necessary, if it does not interrupt him or disrespect him. (Even though disrespect is generally me having a different opinion) I am small and is important.
 

Windhover

meandering home
SF Supporter
old, broken, worthless, like a pile of shit
To me you are a wonderful human being SillyOldBear. I feel strongly about other's lives as you guys likely have noticed. Anyways, I always want to do paintings of people from SF but of course it's not possible. What I'm trying to say is offering an alternative view, but not to invalidate your feelings.
 

Windhover

meandering home
SF Supporter
Shit, crap, shit, crap, shit, crap, shit crap

I hate it when my husband makes me feel this way. I must remain silent, subservient and respectful. I must be seen and not heard. I must listen and follow instructions, do as I’m told and do not share my opinion. I am always wrong and he is always right. His way is better than my way. I must remember the rules and only speak if it is truly necessary, if it does not interrupt him or disrespect him. (Even though disrespect is generally me having a different opinion) I am small and is important.
So sorry this happens. It was the same with my husband. I could have written this, with the addition of being labeled aggressive. I was wasn't wise or strong enought: I couldn't handle it. I wish you the very best possible @Holding my breath .

hug
 

MisterBGone

~\_✅`,')
SF Supporter
Shit, crap, shit, crap, shit, crap, shit crap

I hate it when my husband makes me feel this way. I must remain silent, subservient and respectful. I must be seen and not heard. I must listen and follow instructions, do as I’m told and do not share my opinion. I am always wrong and he is always right. His way is better than my way. I must remember the rules and only speak if it is truly necessary, if it does not interrupt him or disrespect him. (Even though disrespect is generally me having a different opinion) I am small and is important.
I'm very sorry that things are this way for you @Holding my breath . That does sound and/or seem very, unfair - & highly so - in my estimation and in my opinion. I know it's perhaps unrealistic to get, or wind up in "equals," relationships. Whether you actually are (that) -- or just merely are able to treat one another as such, regardless, just in terms of... how you feel about them as human beings & respect them for what they are worth. . . the kind of people that they are & the character they represent & what not~ / So when circumstances such as this exist. It makes me feel badly for you & hurt for you great ly too, because I don't feel that you deserve it. You haven't done anything to warrant this (behavior on his part) nor are you an inherently bad person: far from it. It just seems as if a balance of power is at play here & the control factor may weigh mightily. But I am hardly even an amateur when it comes to marriage or other kinds of relationships & their analysis. Whatever it is, by definition or not. It does not sound or seem particularly healthy to me. Certainly for you, anyway. And as for what he gets out of it? I really don't know, and at this point, at least in times where he is treating you like this and making you feel like this. I couldn't honestly actually care-less. so i just want yo uto know that--I think you deserve better (or as in to be treated better & with more respect; or respectfully, speaking respectfully only & of course~*). -mrb!
 

Aurelia

🔥 A Fire Inside 🔥
SF Supporter
I heard the Spirit tell me that no man can give me what Christ can give me. And I prayed and asked Him to please help ingrain this into my heart because all I see daily is more and more proof of this very thing. All I am is flesh to them. They abide by their own lust, even the ones who claim to be godly and Christians. I can't deal with it. I'm sickened and disgusted by such behavior. How do you ever expect to find a partner like this? Surely, if you stop and think you'll recognize you're doing it all wrong. But they don't care to do so. And so I need Him to help me stop looking because I'll never find anything more than that it seems.
 

Baywasp

I know the world turns and it will turn on me
SF Supporter
Are you already in the PhD program? I'm also thinking about doing it!

Like @MisterBGone said, you can try to discuss it with your supervisor :) Good luck!
Thanks! Yeah, I'm in my second semester of my program and my advisor wants me to identify my top 3 choices for dissertation chair before the end of classes in April. Feels so early.
 

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