How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[TragicReality]

Relieved, a bit. I needed space and privacy. Finally the landlord and gf went on vacation for a week. Although, for some strange reason, he said the gfs daughter and her boyfriend will be here at some time this week. It pisses me off for lack of better words. I pay rent. They dont.

I've already had to trust the gf not to go into my things, and there was a night I came back to my bedroom door being open when I always shut it. One day shortly after she met and dated the landlord, she came in with her own key to the house. I say nothing, it's not my house but I always think a lock on my door should have been provided.

The landlord is not into locking doors in the house, I mentioned it a few times because stuff got lost/misplaced. He said ''I've never had to do that'' yet was confused one morning asking me to help look for his car keys. I said again, I don't know how to help and what's wrong with a lock so if anything is misplaced there's no confusion (or accusing me of anything), he shrugged it off. Half hour later he found his car key on the ground outside.

I had a ring from my mother that was very sentimental to me, it went missing from my bedroom. It's not the value of it, it's the memories with it. My complaint tonight is I'd really love to be able to walk around freely and enjoy my solitude without wondering when the daughter of the gf drops by, and for what? I don't even know her. Another person with access to this house. Strange.

 

[TragicReality]

☕️ 🤗 ☔️

Thanks seabird, hugs back!

 

[Baywasp]

Feeling like I can never connect with others the way "normal" people do, whatever that means, and that there will always be a big part of me held at a distance, regardless if I want to or not.

 

[Lane]

Shit, crap, shit, crap, shit, crap, shit crap

I hate it when my husband makes me feel this way. I must remain silent, subservient and respectful. I must be seen and not heard. I must listen and follow instructions, do as I’m told and do not share my opinion. I am always wrong and he is always right. His way is better than my way. I must remember the rules and only speak if it is truly necessary, if it does not interrupt him or disrespect him. (Even though disrespect is generally me having a different opinion) I am small and is important.

It must be very hard to live like that. You are not shit, but very special. We hear you.

 

[Lane]

Feeling like I can never connect with others the way "normal" people do, whatever that means, and that there will always be a big part of me held at a distance, regardless if I want to or not.

sometimes I feel awkward too, even with my own family, your not alone.

 

[Lane]

Scared, hopeless, and depressed.

Sorry that things are so difficult for you right now Angie. I hope that time can heal some of those feelings. And don't worry at all about posting how you feel or how much.

 

[puffymilk]

I did the test and I'm not really sure about the result. Oh well.

 

[Aurelia]

I had someone tell me he was great catch because he had a business, a house, and cars. I said you'll die just as naked as you were born without all those things. Is that what you think makes you worthy? None of us are worthy. Only by God's grace are we saved, so your possessions don't mean a thing.

 

[puffymilk]

Feeling a bit better now

 

[TragicReality]

I had someone tell me he was great catch because he had a business, a house, and cars. I said you'll die just as naked as you were born without all those things. Is that what you think makes you worthy? None of us are worthy. Only by God's grace are we saved, so your possessions don't mean a thing.

Dont' take what I say if it doesn't make any sense or help. I understand you are coming from a point of view as a Christian. But men do accomplish things and often are proud of it, it could be that this person is basically saying ''I have what I need for myself, I worked for it, this is a part of who I am'' or maybe showing you he is self sufficient. I used to also be unimpressed by the way they start with showing a house or car. Honestly now, looking back, I should have said ''Good for you!'' and maybe even consider the fact they might have been able to help me in life, not as in paying for everything, but realize if they were capable of that then they are a better catch than someone struggling living in their moms basement. I still rent a room. I think a woman should equally be independent though, I'm just saying I don't see what's wrong now with a man pointing that out, unless he's solely focused on material possessions. Best to you always.

 

[Aurelia]

Dont' take what I say if it doesn't make any sense or help. I understand you are coming from a point of view as a Christian. But men do accomplish things and often are proud of it, it could be that this person is basically saying ''I have what I need for myself, I worked for it, this is a part of who I am'' or maybe showing you he is self sufficient. I used to also be unimpressed by the way they start with showing a house or car. Honestly now, looking back, I should have said ''Good for you!'' and maybe even consider the fact they might have been able to help me in life, not as in paying for everything, but realize if they were capable of that then they are a better catch than someone struggling living in their moms basement. I still rent a room. I think a woman should equally be independent though, I'm just saying I don't see what's wrong now with a man pointing that out, unless he's solely focused on material possessions. Best to you always.

I do approach it as a Christian, so my viewpoint is completely different. After turning to God, you realize how meaningless possessions are. God will give us whatever we need if we trust in Him, but this man claims to believe in God and yet he values his possessions more. That's not a true Christian. Even Satan believes in God. Plus, he's boasting about his wealth and abundance, which shows not only faithlessness and idolatry, but also a complete lack of humility. If you have wealth, share with the poor and needy, don't boast in what you think you achieved with your own hands. God gave it to you as a gift, so be thankful and humble yourself. Don't boast.

 

[Lane]

I had someone tell me he was great catch because he had a business, a house, and cars. I said you'll die just as naked as you were born without all those things. Is that what you think makes you worthy? None of us are worthy. Only by God's grace are we saved, so your possessions don't mean a thing.

He sounds like an ass. Good on you for setting him straight.

 

[Lane]

At the bar afterwork getting dinner and a drink thinking about my last week at work. How I'll miss some of the people, but not the bullshit. An ex texted me today saying how he misses and loves me and wants to see me. The last time we spoke he was very rude bcz I wouldn't meet him and called my fiance old and me a user and that I was with a crusty old man. I told him he was rude but he just keeps being persistent. He's just a pain in the butt. I wish we could just be friends but he doesn't allow for it. Thanks for listening SF friends.

 

[cymbele]

I’m leaving Italy tomorrow. I enjoyed my visit but somehow longing for someone to call or someone to be home happy to see me. My daughter is excited to see her family. Many single travelers mentioned that they were looking forward to seeing their partners. I’m going home to a house alone with a cat. But I’m lucky I have had the opportunity to travel. But I will be lonely.

 

[TragicReality]

I'm aching today. Since the doc said take naproxen, it isn't helping. I'll tell my own doctor in a week, and I don't want her taking over my meds. She likes to diagnose stuff sitting there, well she doesn't know my history for over 10 yrs to begin with. Just stop taking the opiod. Oh my, that's easy doc! I'm grumpy.

 

[Aurelia]

I gave my counselor my resume today and she said I'll be interviewed to counsel addicts when her boss comes back from vacation...I'm so nervous. I'm so blessed to even get this opportunity straight out of school when all I have is retail experience, but she's putting my resume right on his desk, recommending me, which is just insane. I'm so grateful to God and I hope I don't mess this up. I'm also studying the driver's manual to get my permit, because I need a way to and from work. My God, is my life really changing? From sitting at home doing nothing all day to all of this? I almost can't believe it's real and I'm worried I'll mess it up somehow. But I keep praying to God for His help.

 

[puffymilk]

Like dying. I don't want to wake up tomorrow.

 

[PrincessPure]

I got this need to be the center of attention. If i am with other girls and a guy pays attention to them it kills me. Yesterday it happened and its killing me. I am prettier anyway.

 

[Windhover]

embarassed and sad because I talk too much about stupid things.

 

[Windhover]

I got this need to be the center of attention. If i am with other girls and a guy pays attention to them it kills me. Yesterday it happened and its killing me. I am prettier anyway.

I hope it is okay to mention this. I take it that you enjoy the competition, at some level and that's cool you're prettier, but I can't help but wonder why you are focused on that one quality of human characteristic (outward appearance) as a sort of judgement.