How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[MisterBGone]

No words for it actually. Overwhelming Grief I guess is at the top of the list.
I'm going to lose my dog soon and I also have to make it happen.
I'm not doing well physically either at this time so it's exacerbating the negativity in my world at the moment.

I'm sorry for you, your dog, and all of the pain and suffering that you both have got to go through.
While I haven't many (helpful) words... the one reading I have (hesitate to use the word, "enjoy" or 'enjoyed' as that has
not been an apt. or accurate description) found beneficial? Useful? Helpful? I don't know what I've found it - but it's helped
in terms of some different forms of connection to the, for lack of a better word, phenomenon of grief. And the more conventional ways in which we traditionally are expected to cope with it, and so on in this, or our, society.
Should such a resource, at some point in the future be of (any) use to you. I'll leave it here. Keeping in mind, my progression is much
further along (& different then) than yours.
Also don't know, how helpful (or not) it would be, for someone who has worked in your profession. Given that it was written by a
Hospital Chaplain.
I hope the best for you & your dog, @Livelife ~
"As Long As You Need." (Permission To Grieve)
by J. S. Park

 

[AvidFan]

Relieved and amused. I've got my race number for Sunday and I've been put in the last wave - which is usually made up of the walkers and people with prams 😂😂😂 I'm not complaining, it's a later start and I might actually stand a chance of being a front runner 😂 This is no doubt because my times have steadily got slower over the years. Last year I did the 10k in 01:14:38 and it was warm and hard. I'm going to aim to beat that, I just need to run slightly quicker than 12 minutes per mile for some of the race. I think I'll go slow and steady, it should be doable if it's not too warm and a giant Scooby Doo doesn't crash into me 😃 I know someone planning to run the half marathon then line up for the 10k and run it straight after. Some people are mad, clearly!

 

[Livelife]

I'm so sorry to hear this. I've seen you post post pics of your fur baby and know how much you love him. We all care about you here, so you are not alone in your struggle.

Thank you very much Lane. I appreciate your support and kind words☺️hug

 

[Bergerac]

Hopeful and optimistic, whether I've reason to be or not, LOL

 

[AvidFan]

Middling. So far so good. No landmines in my emails today, my delivery arrived safely, and I just have to get through 3 meetings at the office. Then I can take a leisurely walk to the station and get the train home.

 

[PrincessPure]

Spoiler

Tbh hard not to stereotype people based on their nationality. 2 years of living overseas mostly haning out with people of my own type and now i realize im sick of them. They are so toxic and shallow, tbh i was no different than them. I wanna distance myself from them forever even if it means being alone. Most people choosing south europe as a destination dont rly come from decent financial backgrounds anyway so u would expect them to be so low level.

 

[full]

Confused.

 

[1Lefty]

a little apprehensive, I have the follow-up meeting with the surgeon

peace

 

[full]

a little apprehensive, I have the follow-up meeting with the surgeon

peace

Good luck that everything goes fine.

 

[1964dodge]

Unimportant. Remembering all the times in my life it seemed like I mattered less than others.

 

[1964dodge]

I don't know what I'm doing here. I'm not sure about anything really. I'm lost. I'm supposed to be happy. Married. 2 beautiful girls. Good job. Big house. Dog.

But I'm not. I'm not happy. I'm miserable. I hate myself. I hate myself because I'm not able to be a man. I'm a shit husband. I'm a terrible father. I have no more friends. My wife has had it with me. I don't blame her.

And it's not supposed to be like this. It's my fault. It's always been my fault. I've lived in this self loathing Cry baby state the majority of my life. And I'm tired.

That's how I feel right now. I'm tired. I'm tired of all of it. I don't want to play anymore.

 

[BlueHealingHeart]

I'm feeling happy!

 

[1964dodge]

No words for it actually. Overwhelming Grief I guess is at the top of the list.
I'm going to lose my dog soon and I also have to make it happen.
I'm not doing well physically either at this time so it's exacerbating the negativity in my world at the moment.

i'm sorry that you are going to lose your special friend. it's not an easy decision just try to understand that it's out of love. i lost one of my chihauhaus a couple of weeks ago, he passed at home. my other one is way past that time but we are having a tough time doing it. you were a good mommy to your dog and i'm sure he knows and appreciates it. i am truly sorry

mike.....

 

[1964dodge]

I'm feeling happy!

 

[Bergerac]

How are you, @1964dodge ?

 

[1964dodge]

A bit annoyed... but I kinda don't even care anymore...

 

[Windhover]

Sore legs, because did a longer (for me) run as well as the extra strength training yesterday. I like how tired and sleepy I've been at night. The nightmares aren't remembered and that's a huge plus. Probably need more food.

I don't want to wak e up and think of how sad I am amd missing my husband, but that is what happens every moring at 5 am. I can stop the thoughts, but it's temporary at best. I can't help imaging what might have been.

 

[Livelife]

i'm sorry that you are going to lose your special friend. it's not an easy decision just try to understand that it's out of love. i lost one of my chihauhaus a couple of weeks ago, he passed at home. my other one is way past that time but we are having a tough time doing it. you were a good mommy to your dog and i'm sure he knows and appreciates it. i am truly sorry

mike.....

Thank you.....Oh Mike I did not know of your loss, I am sorry to hear it and hope you all are doing ok....how is the little one you have with you still doing with his brother not in the house any longer? I hope ok. Until you all make the decision.....my thoughts are with you and your wife as well.

 

[1964dodge]

How are you, @1964dodge ?

i'm doing pretty good considering. chest infection and pneumobia sucks but at least i'm home. the meds are srewing up my body. two worst reactions are diarrhea and high glucose, over 450. now it's around 360 so better thank you for asking

mike.......

 

[Bergerac]

i'm doing pretty good considering. chest infection and pneumobia sucks but at least i'm home. the meds are srewing up my body. two worst reactions are diarrhea and high glucose, over 450. now it's around 360 so better thank you for asking

mike.......

Oh my goodness, Mike. That sounds awful for you. I’m glad that things at least seem to be moving in the right direction and you’re home now. Will you please continue to keep us updated?