How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Inanimate]

Have you tried watching The Chosen yet? I think it might give you some new perspectives on life like it did for me.

Hey, it’s nice to hear from you again. I was starting to worry.

No, but thanks for the reminder. I haven’t seen a lot of TV lately owing to the diamond dotz painting I’ve been working on and recently finished.

 

[mosaic hearts]

I have to go to work in about 40 minutes. I feel absolutely ill physically & emotionally because of bad flashbacks that came up a few hours ago. I lost a sense of time when I switched & two child alters came out to remember & write & draw about what happened to them. I feel the aftereffects of that. I'm crying as I write this. I don't know how I'll do my job today. I wish I could stay home & go to bed but I can't. I hope God will give me the strength & courage for what I need to do today. My employer's office is right beside me which doesn't help. He's a bully. I don't need anything from him right now. I wish I could hide under a rock. I really do. This is so hard.😥

 

[Livelife]

I have to go to work in about 40 minutes. I feel absolutely ill physically & emotionally because of bad flashbacks that came up a few hours ago. I lost a sense of time when I switched & two child alters came out to remember & write & draw about what happened to them. I feel the aftereffects of that. I'm crying as I write this. I don't know how I'll do my job today. I wish I could stay home & go to bed but I can't. I hope God will give me the strength & courage for what I need to do today. My employer's office is right beside me which doesn't help. He's a bully. I don't need anything from him right now. I wish I could hide under a rock. I really do. This is so hard.😥

I’m sorry to hear you have to go in today. And I hope you don’t have to interact with your boss much or any while there. You’ll make it through the workday and then you can come home and rest and sleep. Sending good thoughts to you✨

 

[mosaic hearts]

I’m sorry to hear you have to go in today. And I hope you don’t have to interact with your boss much or any while there. You’ll make it through the workday and then you can come home and rest and sleep. Sending good thoughts to you✨

Thank you @Livelife. This means a lot to me. Your kind words will help me cope a little better!

 

[Shinzon1]

Feeling really lost and defeated

Emotionally I'm not processing getting assaulted at the bus station very well and the concussion I got is kicking my ass.

Went to the er cause I thought I might pass out in the street and doctors recommended bed rest.

I don't really know how to think or feel at the moment.

My boss is a saint and gave me permission to take the next two days off work to rest cause that's what the doctor recommended. However I just feel anxious at that.

 

[SillyOldBear]

Feeling really lost and defeated

Emotionally I'm not processing getting assaulted at the bus station very well and the concussion I got is kicking my ass.

Went to the er cause I thought I might pass out in the street and doctors recommended bed rest.

I don't really know how to think or feel at the moment.

My boss is a saint and gave me permission to take the next two days off work to rest cause that's what the doctor recommended. However I just feel anxious at that.

That really sucks that you got assaulted. This world really is ugly at times. Glad you have some time off and hope you feel better soon.

 

[Inanimate]

Chagrined at how life goes on and on and on as I simultaneously carry on perpetually being dead inside. I wonder which will outlast the other.

 

[Windhover]

It's so beautiful here. I'm hungry all the time even thiugh I don't need food. I really miss my daughter and son. Being so far away - 8000 miles - is wearing my resilience down, making my heart feel empty.

 

[AvidFan]

Stressed but what's new 🤷‍♂️

 

[SillyOldBear]

Just tired of everything. Especially getting old and having so much break. And not being able to trust doctors. Lack of funds just complicates things, as done being alone. And then there is the messed up world that just keeps getting messier. I guess what really is the worst thing is that I can't do anything to change any of this. It is what it is. And I have been unsuccessful in changing my attitude. I just need to be more accepting of this mess. I just don't want to be old, broken and useless. But that is what being old seems to entail.

 

[Bergerac]

Wish me luck. Just sent an e-mail to someone, regarding another "job". Don't think they'll be too happy about it, as we've spoken before and there were issues. Still, fingers crossed. I had nothing to lose. xx

 

[AvidFan]

Bit less stressed. The big thing that could have gone wrong turned out to not go too badly, which is a weight off my mind.

 

[Auri]

There isn't much I'd rather do every single day of my life than paint while listening to the new album of my favourite band on a super audio setup. It's like feeling peace, joy and excitement every second of the day.

 

[Lane]

Feeling down bcz someone I'm supposed to be close to doesn't act right, or instead of a grown man more like a child.

 

[Livelife]

Just tired of everything. Especially getting old and having so much break. And not being able to trust doctors. Lack of funds just complicates things, as done being alone. And then there is the messed up world that just keeps getting messier. I guess what really is the worst thing is that I can't do anything to change any of this. It is what it is. And I have been unsuccessful in changing my attitude. I just need to be more accepting of this mess. I just don't want to be old, broken and useless. But that is what being old seems to entail.

As you have similarly said to me, I wish we could change some of this. I wish that some of us lived closer to each other so that face to face shared time could happen for those of us that might want it from time to time in and in these kinds of situations. I miss that the most...some consistent shared time with cared about others....Hearts and hope for you today Barb

 

[Livelife]

There isn't much I'd rather do every single day of my life than paint while listening to the new album of my favourite band on a super audio setup. It's like feeling peace, joy and excitement every second of the day.

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You have blown my mind with those speakers. I want them! I still have mine in place from the 80's but they probably don't sound anything like those.
Your art is stunning, thanks for sharing.

 

[Livelife]

Feeling down bcz someone I'm supposed to be close to doesn't act right, or instead of a grown man more like a child.

I'm sorry to hear when this kind of thing happens, hope it's of very short duration.

 

[Livelife]

It's so beautiful here. I'm hungry all the time even thiugh I don't need food. I really miss my daughter and son. Being so far away - 8000 miles - is wearing my resilience down, making my heart feel empty.

I'm glad you have the beauty around you to be in and I'm sorry to hear that your heart is sad.

 

[Livelife]

Thank you @Livelife. This means a lot to me. Your kind words will help me cope a little better!

Thank you. I hope you are feeling a little better or a lot better today

 

[mosaic hearts]

Stressed but what's new 🤷‍♂️

I can relate, @AvidFan. Stress from all kinds of directions. Hugs!