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AvidFan

Retired Cat Staff
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I’m more anxious than I have been for a long time. I found some concerning things on my back and left leg. I thought it was just acne but I am pretty sure it is not, based on the symptoms (don’t want to get graphic). I put in an appointment request for dermatology, and waiting for a response. I know it’s not urgent; I have been dealing with it for months and a couple more days is not likely to be significant.

The waiting is driving my anxiety, though. It’s not so much the worry about it being something serious, but the fear of dealing with medical staff again. I want to know asap what it might be. I think the longer I can plan ahead, the more effectively I can manage my anxiety. There’s another skin issue that I don’t want to describe but it’s also worrying me. I’m refraining from internet medical research because that just makes my anxiety worse.
I hope you get it sorted. I had a weird growth on my forehead during the diazepam withdrawal, I was convinced it was cancer, but it was just a skin tag, I burned it off with diclofenac gel. I hope yours can be treated as easily, you anxiety will feed on it though!
 

AvidFan

Retired Cat Staff
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Almost off Klonopin for good. I'm down to 0.5mg. Next dose will be 0.25 for about a week or less and then I'm done. This is the first time I've successfully done this. Other times were cold turkey (because I simply ran out early and had no choice) and very unpleasant.
Well done. As someone who has also been through benzo withdrawal, you have done a very hard thing. Be careful of some symptoms when you jump off but you should be OK!
 

LumberJack

Huggy Bear 🐻 u r warned!
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Interview over, not had an interview in so long, thought it was just going to be a formality as it was with recruiter but it was "think of a situation when...."
Oh geeze, those interviews are the worst. Ask me technical questions, no problem, but those stupid behavioral questions are bullshit. I have been on the hiring side of the interview process, and those types of questions favor those with a strong BS game but not useful skills or ability to be a good teammate.

My favorite interview question, was something like, “suppose you have a plastic sandwich bag, a 3 inch length of wire (4.5cm), and a roll of duct tape. Using this, how would you find a company RAROC.
My answer: “What the hell is a RAROC?”

That’s actually the correct answer; they were asking it to see if I would try to make up something, or if I could ask a question when I don’t know. FWIW RAROC is risk adjusted return on capital. Used for financial analysis (this was for a financial analyst position).

My point with the story is that you are better off not going into that job. You are interviewing them as much as the other way around, and the questions they ask are a signal about company leadership. Trick questions or general problem solving questions make sense to pose to a candidate, and you want to look for opportunities where the question is relevant to the job.
 

LumberJack

Huggy Bear 🐻 u r warned!
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Annoyed, and scared of what my mind comes up with, at night, bringing the dead back to an animated state. It is not a good feeling that he haunts my dreams. Some switch should be under control and it's not. The only thing that immediately helps my mind is running.
Running is a form of meditation, IMHO. You have to hold your posture, to run with proper form, right? Like ears over shoulders over hips and on down so that you can balance. And of course you have to breathe.

I do both, and it’s fascinating that the same thing my personal trainer taught me about running, is what my meditation instructor said about sitting, lol!

Breathe. Focus on the exhale. The inhale will take care of itself. No judgment, just straighten up when you notice that you have collapsed. Keep going, you will make mistakes and get distracted. When you notice that, you can straighten up and keep returning to the breath. If only we could do that with any given moment. Just a thought.

Running is great for that. Make sure to get your stretches in and save your knees!
 

LumberJack

Huggy Bear 🐻 u r warned!
SF Supporter
*hug10*hug*brohug
Personal struggle is huge for me today/tonight. i am very lost and feel extremely alone!
Yeah. Loneliness is a terrible place to be. I am also isolated.
it’s very challenging to stay sober. Isolation is the fuel of relapse. The antidote is connection. I only know how to connect with certain people. In a way it is good, because it helps me stay away from negative influences, but it keeps me away from positive influences, too. I’m struggling with this question.
 

Windhover

meandering home
SF Supporter
Running is a form of meditation, IMHO. You have to hold your posture, to run with proper form, right? Like ears over shoulders over hips and on down so that you can balance. And of course you have to breathe.

I do both, and it’s fascinating that the same thing my personal trainer taught me about running, is what my meditation instructor said about sitting, lol!

Breathe. Focus on the exhale. The inhale will take care of itself. No judgment, just straighten up when you notice that you have collapsed. Keep going, you will make mistakes and get distracted. When you notice that, you can straighten up and keep returning to the breath. If only we could do that with any given moment. Just a thought.

Running is great for that. Make sure to get your stretches in and save your knees!
Yep yep and yep! I stretch and use a roller after the run, when my muscles are warm still.

The proper form, when I remember to use it, changes the feel of the run. For ex., if I bring negarivity to the run, which usually happens to at least some degree, I soon let it go what with breathing, posture, and being present, so as to not get run over lol. The loneliness goes completely away as well, for a time.
 

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