How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Inastorm]

I'm glad you've got an appointment. Do you feel like you'll be safe at least until you see the psychiatrist? Do you feel like you'll be able to be completely honest about how you're feeling?


Do you feel like therapy is helping, and that you're getting as many therapy session as you need?

Thanks for the post. I think I'll be safe until then, but even when I'm honest about how I feel from a suicide point of view. I would be considered low risk. I'm in the UK and it's very difficult to get put into a hospital from being suicidal, they take things much more seriously if your at risk of hurting someone else. So, yes, I will be honest in my appointment.

I'm having to pay for therapy sessions at the moment, which I'm fine with but, I'm would like more regular appointments but I can't afford it. That said I am seeing them twice a month, and it does help but it's a councillor, where it's mainly me complaining and off loading. I would prefer a psychologist and a structured programme to work though.

 

[may71]

it's very difficult to get put into a hospital from being suicidal

I'm sorry it's like that. I guess the flip side is if you don't want to be hospitalized, you don't have to worry so much about that.

I think I'll be safe until then

That's good

 

[Inastorm]

Sad. I've had an awful day. After stabilising on amitriptyline months ago I've been on a steady 10mg dose and been highly functioning mostly. I decided to start trying to taper again, and cut to 6mg last weekend. I thought I was doing well, had a few wobbles, but yesterday my mood and energy really started crashing and am definitely experiencing withdrawals from the drop. I decided I wanted to switch off, take it easy, but then I started getting all these emails and people harassing me, like if i hadn't answered the email within 12 hours they were following up with calls and texts and WhatsAPPs - like leave me the fuck alone if I could reply right now I would, filling my queue with calls and messages isn't helping you get a quicker answer.... Then I decided to sack work and go to my running group, it was all going well, my sore calf was behaving, it was a lovely warm evening and I started to feel better when BOOM!! My left foot hit the ground, I felt this thudding shockwave, and then the back of my knee started to tighten up. I think it was going down some stairs. So instead of going for a drink in the sunshine with these lovely people I jogged home almost in tears and that's where I am now, 2 weeks to go till the race I've been training for, I did everything right, took the whole week off after my long run, took it fairly easy - and still got injured 😟😔😢

Sounds like a terrible day, I'm not surprised your feeling sad. Were you wanting to tamper amitriptyline because you were starting to feel better? Amitriptyline is tricky to come off of, sounds like withdrawal, what you going to do?

You have any ice packs, I've been used these shin splint packs over my knees and they are really helping.

 

[AvidFan]

Sounds like a terrible day, I'm not surprised your feeling sad. Were you wanting to tamper amitriptyline because you were starting to feel better? Amitriptyline is tricky to come off of, sounds like withdrawal, what you going to do?

You have any ice packs, I've been used these shin splint packs over my knees and they are really helping.

I've got frozen peas or sweetcorn lol. I suppose I could freeze a can of beer and put that behind the knee perhaps.

I got stuck on amitriptyline by accident, have only ever used it for sleep - then got a really big slap when I ran out at Christmas and decided to try sleeping naturally, had only ever taken 10-20mg, occasionally more for sleep. When I figured out it was withdrawals and reinstated, everything started going back to normal overnight, ever since then I've been afraid to come off. Now my running is (was) going well and I've started reducing work stress, seemed like a good idea to try to reduce from 10mg with a view to not being shackled to this crap. It seems harder than it should be! I'll stick with 6mg, I was worried about how withdrawal might affect my race but that's probably the least of my running worries right now. I'll put a can of lager in the freezer, have a shower, then hold the can behind my leg. Years ago I'd have drunk the can of lager instead but it's been in the fridge since Christmas so I could use it as renewable ice pack or something...

 

[Windhover]

Sad doesn't approach it. While nowhere is eden, and all humans are intrinsically hugely flawed, still; when other places have higher values and their societies are healthier and freeer than the one in which I find myself, it is shocking, dismaying, and depressing.

 

[Inastorm]

Sad doesn't approach it. While nowhere is eden, and all humans are intrinsically hugely flawed, still; when other places have higher values and their societies are healthier and freeer than the one in which I find myself, it is shocking, dismaying, and depressing.

Sorry you feel like that, are you in the US?

 

[Windhover]

Thanks @Inastorm yes, I am.

 

[Inastorm]

Politics in the UK has gone a bit bonkers today, with a very right wing party doing quite well at the polls.

 

[AmberMarie]

I hope you feel better soon AmberMarie.

Thank you!

 

[KM76710]

It's only the fundraising side, I must point out.

Doing to help others in however way you can is a plus for any person.

 

[Windhover]

Thanks, but mine is more than just a bit. Around 70 pounds.

SillyOldBear I agree that's a daunting burden. We support you 100%. I wish your doctor had offered some positive, accessible ideas about how to go about feeling lighter. I know a couple folks who started walking little by little, around the block, etc., and their metabolism steadily improved, allowing them to lose weight over the course of a year or 2. I'd walk with you. 🚶‍♀️👟 🌤️

 

[SillyOldBear]

SillyOldBear I agree that's a daunting burden. We support you 100%. I wish your doctor had offered some positive, accessible ideas about how to go about feeling lighter. I know a couple folks who started walking little by little, around the block, etc., and their metabolism steadily improved, allowing them to lose weight over the course of a year or 2. I'd walk with you. 🚶‍♀️👟 🌤️

Doctor was a urologist so dieting not really his thing. But he had lost a lot of weight. He used an app he loaded onto his smart phone to guide him. I only have a flip phone.

 

[Windhover]

Doctor was a urologist so dieting not really his thing. But he had lost a lot of weight. He used an app he loaded onto his smart phone to guide him. I only have a flip phone.

For some people, technology is what engages them and inspires, but not everyone. If you are interested, I will walk with you, albeit at a distance.

 

[HappyKitty]

regret not asking AI to req my hairstyle to do my hair earlier. next hair apt I will. 😺

 

[Lane]

Just continuing to struggle - i have a therapy session next week and im due to see the psychiatrist in June. Hopefully i can get some help as the daily struggle is so difficult to do day in day out.

I hope the therapy session goes well and you find some relief very soon.

 

[SillyOldBear]

For some people, technology is what engages them and inspires, but not everyone. If you are interested, I will walk with you, albeit at a distance.

Thanks for the offer, but I cannot afford a smart phone. Especially considering the increasing costs for everything including car and home repair/insurance.

 

[AvidFan]

OK I suppose. My leg hasn't flared up as bad as I was worried it might. Wouldn't run on it right now but I didn't get an intense/pain collapse when I got up today, which would have been a sign of some serious damage. Suggests it might just be a strain from overuse and overextending a tending going down steps. The fact I ran home with the injury at some pace, and it hasn't fallen apart, is at least a little encouraging. Saturday so will attempt to take it easy and not dial up too much remote work, even then will only work on something I enjoy rather than grind. No email checking till Tuesday, had enough of that yesterday!

 

[puffymilk]

I am happy. So much great food today.

 

[Lane]

Frustrated, annoyed, anxious. I had words with my daughter over her leaving stuff all over and leaving kitchen messy. Then she brings her brother into it. We all live in close quarters and I don't nag bcz my children are 21 and 27, but the mess gets out of control. Then my daughter said that she has no time, but its hard to live with. Thanks for listening SF friends.

 

[Lane]

OK I suppose. My leg hasn't flared hup as bad as I was worried it might. Wouldn't run on it right now but I didn't get an intense/pain collapse when I got up today, which would have been a sign of some serious damage. Suggests it might just be a strain from overuse and overextending a tending going down steps. The fact I ran home with the injury at some pace, and it hasn't fallen apart, is at least a little encouraging. Saturday so will attempt to take it easy and not dial up too much remote work, even then will only work on something I enjoy rather than grind. No email checking till Tuesday, had enough of that yesterday!

Hope you recover quickly Avid and enjoy doing something for yourself.