How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[JanisSPK]

I woke up to my throat hurting pretty bad.

 

[JanisSPK]

I've never enjoyed small talk. I used to be told I was always too quiet. I was busy listening and trying to figure out what was wrong at home.

I kind of wish I was smarter. I told my sons when they were growing up in school, that they don't need to be smart at everything, that if they found something they enjoyed and were good at, that's good enough.

I wish I knew how to encourage my younger, he's gone through a lot. I know he blames himself which increases his desire to dumb down himself with weed. Or should I say, numb his mind. I know there will be something he can do, I just don't know what right now.

We are all smart or smarter at one thing or another. I agree with you, it's the passion and like you said, the enjoyment behind the attraction, whatever it is.... I hope your son's usage lightens up as time passes

 

[TragicReality]

I just saw an old friend, I told him I cant stop sneezing.... he said it's the pollen. I said never had that problem, he said every seven years or so it's worse. Nice to see him, but I've got to stop sneaking up on him, he said I scared the fuck out of him. lol. I like him because he's great at making jokes on the spot. I'm in a good mood I just cant' get some motivation.

 

[TragicReality]

We are all smart or smarter at one thing or another. I agree with you, it's the passion and like you said, the enjoyment behind the attraction, whatever it is.... I hope your son's usage lightens up as time passes

thank you

 

[LumberJack]

I’m feeling very raw and a little bit spent. I was at therapy for PTSD coping skills, and I was talking about these old memories coming up. She asked me a question that I knew the answer right away, but I hadn’t thought about it. I started bawling (not vocal, but a lot of waterworks).

It felt like a good release of something that had been building for a while. I’m now feeling the physical effects though, and sort of an emotional hangover. I feel like I’m not worthy of anyone caring about me. I also feel helpless because not working is definitely painful. I recognize these thoughts as untrue, but I am tired right now and I am going to have a rest.

 

[JanisSPK]

thank you

You’re welcome ☺️

 

[JanisSPK]

I’m feeling very raw and a little bit spent. I was at therapy for PTSD coping skills, and I was talking about these old memories coming up. She asked me a question that I knew the answer right away, but I hadn’t thought about it. I started bawling (not vocal, but a lot of waterworks).

It felt like a good release of something that had been building for a while. I’m now feeling the physical effects though, and sort of an emotional hangover. I feel like I’m not worthy of anyone caring about me. I also feel helpless because not working is definitely painful. I recognize these thoughts as untrue, but I am tired right now and I am going to have a rest.

Sounds like some good work and natural after effects and what a great idea to go give your body and mind a rest

 

[Inanimate]

I feel like I’m not worthy of anyone caring about me.

Fuck that. I care about you, as do many here, but I get it.

 

[LumberJack]

I just saw an old friend, I told him I cant stop sneezing.... he said it's the pollen. I said never had that problem, he said every seven years or so it's worse.

FWIW - I have allergies so bad that I have prescription medication for it. I have noticed it being way worse this year. Also allergies seem to come and go year over year, so them showing up suddenly is not unheard of.

 

[Inanimate]

My secondary psychiatrist commented that I look brighter today, and I suppose I do. Perhaps I’m starting to appreciate benefit from Spravato treatment, or maybe yesterday’s therapy session gave me hope. I don’t know what to think.

 

[bubblebear]

Hello

 

[LumberJack]

My secondary psychiatrist commented that I look brighter today, and I suppose I do. Perhaps I’m starting to appreciate benefit from Spravato treatment, or maybe yesterday’s therapy session gave me hope. I don’t know what to think.

I’m just curious if you want to share, but are you also getting infusions like where you go into a clinic? I’m interested that it’s showing an improvement in mood overall. In my case, ketamine per se made the really serious suicidal impulses go away, but I am still on a handful of meds daily to function in society.

 

[LumberJack]

Hello

Hiya bubbly

 

[bubblebear]

I feel a lot of self hatred at the moment. I am so stuck on a personal and professional level and I feel like things never really get better and Im not optimistic enough to just laugh it off and keep trying like nothings wrong. I'm so sick of things

 

[Inanimate]

I’m just curious if you want to share, but are you also getting infusions like where you go into a clinic? I’m interested that it’s showing an improvement in mood overall. In my case, ketamine per se made the really serious suicidal impulses go away, but I am still on a handful of meds daily to function in society.

The vehicle is a nasal spray. Supposedly, it works faster that way. After two doses, I feel the sedation and dissociation coming on right away, but those side effects are resolving much faster for me. By the way, yes, I’m getting the treatment done in a clinic.

 

[JanisSPK]

The vehicle is a nasal spray. Supposedly, it works faster that way. After two doses, I feel the sedation and dissociation coming on right away, but those side effects are resolving much faster for me.

I misread the content, my apologies.

 

[Inanimate]

I misread the content, my apologies.

Oh, I didn’t notice. No apology necessary.

 

[LumberJack]

I feel a lot of self hatred at the moment. I am so stuck on a personal and professional level and I feel like things never really get better and Im not optimistic enough to just laugh it off and keep trying like nothings wrong. I'm so sick of things

I know that feeling. I’m of the mindset that any strategy that starts with “just” is doomed to fail. I think feeling like something is wrong is a signal that something needs to be attended to. I try to be resilient, but also realistic.

That said, I am also very stuck professionally and I am not optimistic that it will get better before it gets worse. Unless, of course, I find me a cute German or Scandinavian gentleman willing to sponsor me for a visa to the EU.

 

[KM76710]

I've never enjoyed small talk. I used to be told I was always too quiet. I was busy listening and trying to figure out what was wrong at home.

I kind of wish I was smarter. I told my sons when they were growing up in school, that they don't need to be smart at everything, that if they found something they enjoyed and were good at, that's good enough.

I wish I knew how to encourage my younger, he's gone through a lot. I know he blames himself which increases his desire to dumb down himself with weed. Or should I say, numb his mind. I know there will be something he can do, I just don't know what right now.

I have never been much for small talk either. Once you ask how things are and a bit of chit chat on some events there is not much left to say. I just claim to be like Larry's brother Darrell and Larry's other brother Darrell. Those two only said one word throughout all of Newhart.

 

[Gard]

I have never been much for small talk either. Once you ask how things are and a bit of chit chat on some events there is not much left to say. I just claim to be like Larry's brother Darrell and Larry's other brother Darrell. Those two only said one word throughout all of Newhart.

Personally, I get tired of talking for very long periods of time. If it's a conversation about something that should lead to a result, that's another matter.