How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[AvidFan]

Im doing some wallpapering, but I'm not feeling very well mentally. Thinking about the other night and how I bottled out.

I'm glad you bottled out and are still here. I hope the papering is a bit of a distraction and you get better mentally very soon.

 

[Lane]

My daughter doesn't need me in her life. It's becoming crystal clear that I won't get to meet my grandson or have a relationship with my daughter. When I think about this situation it stirs up memories of the past, then come the regrets.

 

[Windhover]

Irony, impatience, anxious. If there was a known way of being anxiety-free forever, my mind would probably find a way to be anxious aobut it. I over-think things to an absurd level. I've been catching it lately, doing more mindful breath work, but the anxiety is persistent. Maybe this is partly why I am good at painting, because my brain's, or my frontal lobes I guess, is addicted to analysing how things appear.

 

[Windhover]

@Lane

 

[Inastorm]

My daughter doesn't need me in her life. It's becoming crystal clear that I won't get to meet my grandson or have a relationship with my daughter. When I think about this situation it stirs up memories of the past, then come the regrets.

Really sorry to hear that @Lane, that's really tough.

 

[Lonely dude30]

Depressed I didn’t get paid at work today but I’m still working today

 

[cymbele]

The good news is that I didn't get depressed last night and was too tired to care. Today I am busy and getting in the groove of being alone but not lonely so i escaped this round of depression. hopefully I will miss the next one also.

 

[Windhover]

I'm tentatively optimistic. It's working, finally, to intentionally allow certain thoughts to have a few moments' of time instead of reacting to them with anxiety. Being alone for the rest of my life instead of being blindsided by abuse is starting to feel fine.

 

[1964dodge]

thanks, Mike. Hope things are a bit better for you?

you're welcome @Bergerac and thank you for asking, starting to get better

mike.....

 

[1964dodge]

Thanks Mike. Hope youre doing ok today.

you're welcome @Lane and i'm doing a little better, thanks for asking

mike...

 

[1964dodge]

My daughter doesn't need me in her life. It's becoming crystal clear that I won't get to meet my grandson or have a relationship with my daughter. When I think about this situation it stirs up memories of the past, then come the regrets.

i am so sorry that your daughter treats you so disrespectfully. you probably did do something in the past to upset her, but let's be real, we all make mistakes raising our children. all we can do is learn from our mistakes and keep showing love. i don't know why your daughter won't move on from it but at this poit it's all her fault, just keep trying, and don"t give up

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

fighting some damned bug but otherwise pretty good

mike

 

[KM76710]

fighting some damned bug but otherwise pretty good

mike

It seems like some bug is going around here also, me and others seem to be having something. Good amount of sneezing here lately for myself.

 

[1964dodge]

It seems like some bug is going around here also, me and others seem to be having something. Good amount of sneezing here lately for myself.

i hope you get over your bug soon

mike,.....

 

[Windhover]

A bit anxious, because there's been a lot of wildfire smoke today. It worries me, and makes me sad. I can't go for my run, too irritating to exercise outdoors.

 

[AvidFan]

A bit anxious, because there's been a lot of wildfire smoke today. It worries me, and makes me sad. I can't go for my run, too irritating to exercise outdoors.

😢

 

[AvidFan]

Just a bit rubbish. After my 5 days off I started feeling waves of fatigue and anxiety again yesterday evening. My internal battery is barely holding charge, and I fatigue very easily, but have a bit of a hard week coming up now back to work. My body treated me to the worst night's sleep in some time, my body battery only charged a quarter (usually 50-75 per cent of late) and I can feel anxiety starting to build up in my body. Great job, body. One thing you need is sleep, so you find a way to stay awake and screw the day over. Great stuff.

 

[chiastic_slide]

I think I was being incredibly rude again. I think my old hair dresser was trying to say hello as I passed by. But I’m already 100 meters away before my brain realize that. Works so slowly when I’m outside with all other sensory inputs. And if I’ve stopped I’d probably not been able to articulate any words anyway.

I think she said “haven’t seen you in a long time” and I could’ve answered “I’ve been thinking of coming by and get my hair cut real short again and get rid of this wild madness”. A nice simple basic human interaction. I miss that.

Probably is the wild hair that makes people remember me even though I rarely speak.

 

[Inastorm]

Just a bit rubbish. After my 5 days off I started feeling waves of fatigue and anxiety again yesterday evening. My internal battery is barely holding charge, and I fatigue very easily, but have a bit of a hard week coming up now back to work. My body treated me to the worst night's sleep in some time, my body battery only charged a quarter (usually 50-75 per cent of late) and I can feel anxiety starting to build up in my body. Great job, body. One thing you need is sleep, so you find a way to stay awake and screw the day over. Great stuff.

Thats rough you didnt get much sleep. Hope you make it through the day, having 5 days off is a lot, then going back with no sleep and a busy day.

 

[AvidFan]

Thats rough you didnt get much sleep. Hope you make it through the day, having 5 days off is a lot, then going back with no sleep and a busy day.

Thanks. I hope your day is going OK.