How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[LumberJack]

Then I went to my physio appointment. She did all these weird things pulling my leg in all kinds of directions and ramped up the exercises. By the time I got back to the office my hip was twingeing constantly and feels like its wrecked. My pelvic floor is also on fire again. I think she's pulling and prodding without much clue what's actually going on and doesn't appear to be cognisant that a pelvic floor sensitised by trauma in surrounding muscles and constant severe stress, isn't going to respond well to being assaulted.

I know it's different between US and UK medical systems, but here I have had to educate a number of providers on how the body deals with trauma. Luckily I've had very good and understanding physical therapists following my injuries, and they explained it to me. But there are some older practitioners who graduated before this information was widely circulated, and haven't stayed up to date on new findings (which I find appalling since the state of art in medicine is always advancing).

The twisting and pulling, I imagine, was diagnostic and she's of the school of thought that doesn't give a lot of credence to patient input. That said, when my PT(s) were diagnosing me, they did so carefully and gently, as opposed to wrenching stuff around. The first one was more or less specialized in the relationship between muscle, connective tissue, and bones, so she knew how to test range of motion and still be respectful of the fascia. It sounds like you're doing the best thing, though, in planning to notify them of the pain and that it is quite dissimilar from muscle soreness (DOMS). Hope you feel better.

 

[LumberJack]

JFC - I just noticed I'm practicing medicine without a license, lol.

Sorry. I want to help, but I'm really not qualified in that domain. I can say I have a lot of experience as a consumer of both physical and mental health services and know what works for me, but I don't know what other variables are important when considering a given course of action.

 

[LumberJack]

Oh btw - my anxiety is off the charts, like I can't digest food kind of fear. Which of course means I'm cranky. My inner child needs a juice box and a nap. I would totally buy a bumper sticker that said this.

 

[AvidFan]

I know it's different between US and UK medical systems, but here I have had to educate a number of providers on how the body deals with trauma. Luckily I've had very good and understanding physical therapists following my injuries, and they explained it to me. But there are some older practitioners who graduated before this information was widely circulated, and haven't stayed up to date on new findings (which I find appalling since the state of art in medicine is always advancing).

The twisting and pulling, I imagine, was diagnostic and she's of the school of thought that doesn't give a lot of credence to patient input. That said, when my PT(s) were diagnosing me, they did so carefully and gently, as opposed to wrenching stuff around. The first one was more or less specialized in the relationship between muscle, connective tissue, and bones, so she knew how to test range of motion and still be respectful of the fascia. It sounds like you're doing the best thing, though, in planning to notify them of the pain and that it is quite dissimilar from muscle soreness (DOMS). Hope you feel better.

Thank you @LumberJack - yes it was to see if there was any pain or issues moving things around and she was quite gentle, and there was no pain during the session. This is unfortunately also the case when I walk - I could go out and walk 10,000 steps and I would feel no pain at all (unless the hip twinged) - then 3-4 hours later the pelvic floor would light up like a bonfire. The hip itself is bonkers, as I can have 3 days clear then twinges galore, followed by another 2 days clear - but a bit disappointed that I had 4 days of it seeming to get better, and now it's not so good. We were/are trying to sort the hip as that likely caused the pelvic floor to start taking strains it shouldn't after an event/issue last year - but now difficult to work on the hip without irritating the pelvic floor. If I went away and found a pelvic floor therapist, they could work on that - but that wouldn't sort the hip issue which would keep putting pressure on the pelvic muscles - so it's really a bit of a mess and unfortunately there seems to be a lot of nerve involvement - so there may be no injury or issue present - but the alarm keeps going off as if there is. And the pelvic floor is also affected a lot by stress, and I have been chronically stressed for a while and now getting much more stressed because I've lost my ability to do any proper exercise, even walking causes pain 😟

 

[AvidFan]

JFC - I just noticed I'm practicing medicine without a license, lol.

Sorry. I want to help, but I'm really not qualified in that domain. I can say I have a lot of experience as a consumer of both physical and mental health services and know what works for me, but I don't know what other variables are important when considering a given course of action.

Lol, you are very supportive with your comments 😎

 

[KM76710]

I feel like I need to crawl into a manhole with a mermaid. Anybody that has seen the Guinea Pig film Mermaid In A Manhole would get it. LOL

 

[Angie]

Is there any gastric upset, such as heartburn or nausea? IANAD, of course, but sometimes when I feel that way I need electrolytes. If there is nausea, it might be not too risky to down some gatorade, or whatever you use to hydrate, just to see.

I am sorry to hear about the mental state and emotional downturn. I hope you feel better soon.

Thank you for the reminder. I actually have some Gatorade.

 

[LumberJack]

I feel like I need to crawl into a manhole with a mermaid. Anybody that has seen the Guinea Pig film Mermaid In A Manhole would get it. LOL

I went and read the blurb on this movie on Amazon Video. It was a complete spoiler; they gave away the ending!!! That level of horror is out of my league now.

 

[LumberJack]

My anxiety has morphed into existential doom and gloom. I could verbalize it as "The world is ending, which is probably for the best. Since that would be better, though, it probably won't." Hopefully it's just fatigue. I'm still under a huge sleep debt. I am eager to convince myself that it is not "sundown" symptoms, such as emotional issues becoming more severe at dusk.

 

[Angie]

My anxiety has morphed into existential doom and gloom. I could verbalize it as "The world is ending, which is probably for the best. Since that would be better, though, it probably won't." Hopefully it's just fatigue. I'm still under a huge sleep debt. I am eager to convince myself that it is not "sundown" symptoms, such as emotional issues becoming more severe at dusk.

It is downright amazing what not sleeping can do to us.

 

[AnHeroTransGirl]

I'm fine tonight, I've been reluctant to bathe but I do plan to. I'm debating on whether or not I should start a diary series on here as a way to document my sanity and current state of things. That way if things go wrong I can point to a post in the diary thread. Though part of me is afraid of acting too "in character" as, like my pfp implies, in terms of my mental health I tend to view myself as Shiori Novella. Screw loose, obsessing over things I probably shouldn't, it's hard to explain to be honest. I don't know what to call this feeling of feeling like another character in certain states of mind but that's how it feels. If I do make a diary thread it will be about my actual real life obviously, but don't be surprised if I start the particularly good days with "Shioriiiin~!"

 

[DarkNightshade]

Today is really hard. I have absolutely no motivation to work. I worry I’ll slip into a full-blown depressive episode. Time will tell.

 

[AvidFan]

Stoic. Still in some pain, but electing not to do the exercises today while my body is flaring. Got to go into work, at least it's Friday.

 

[Windhover]

Anxious. Anxiety wakes me early with a kiss, or more like a truncheon to the head of cortisol; at least that how if seems to feel. Am of two minds about my situation, so my mind is always craving action and there isn't any to be taken. Action always feels better than not, but I'm wary of it in the sense of the old idiom, better the devil you know.

 

[nicktheundoer]

It's tiring to face this depression..

 

[nicktheundoer]

Today is really hard. I have absolutely no motivation to work. I worry I’ll slip into a full-blown depressive episode. Time will tell.

Hey stay strong........🤝🤝🤝

 

[nicktheundoer]

Very sad.........

🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂

 

[nicktheundoer]

I don't feel well and I think it is more than the tail end of a virus. I am foggy headed and a bit dizzy. My mental state is sad and I can't concentrate.

Not sure what to do about it all.

🫂🫂🫂

 

[nicktheundoer]

Finally got my apartment back. Still have to wait for some paint job and there were some missing panels they didn’t have right now. But basically done. Relieved.

😊😊😊😊👍👍😉😉😊😊😊

 

[Pebble mouse]

Any results yet. I hope it leads to a solution to choking concerns.

I have a severely inflamed esophagus. It is one grade below the most severe, so it's no good at all. I really hope I don't need surgery. If the PPIs don't work, that may be necessary.