How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Lostman85]

In the hospital making sure I didn't calapse my lungs again. Been throwing up all day. Everything goes wrong for me. I cant wait to be gone cause my life is so bad its never going to get better. Life sucks. I know im being harsh but nothing ever goes right for me. Nomatter how hard I try I just hate myself more. Well hope everyone has a great night or day cause im going to struggle more tomorrow.

 

[Lostman85]

That's awful. I wish the universe would start being kinder to you soon.

It would be nice or i need to leave this earth. Anything is better then what im going through

 

[ClassicsFan]

Like I could use a vacation.

 

[LumberJack]

Physically, I’m still wrestling with fatigue. I was doing well with refraining from my lower level OCD behaviors, but my willpower buckled and I pulled an all-nighter last night. I wish I could say I was inventing something, but in reality it was a lot of scattered cleaning where I start 6 things before I've finished one, and then I cannot stop until they're all wrapped up. Unfortunately I reached physical exhaustion first so I still have chores on my plate.

Emotionally I'm doing relatively okay. The intrusive thoughts re: suicide are still there, but they are not interrupting my daily activities. I still get waves of doom and gloom mentality that wash over me, but they pass as quickly as they come on.

 

[1964dodge]

Feel worn out. Now im sick on top of everything. Anything else want to happen to me. Why do I have to be here.

i hope you feel better soon

mike...

 

[1964dodge]

Nauseous.

i hope things get better for you soon

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Physically, I’m still wrestling with fatigue. I was doing well with refraining from my lower level OCD behaviors, but my willpower buckled and I pulled an all-nighter last night. I wish I could say I was inventing something, but in reality it was a lot of scattered cleaning where I start 6 things before I've finished one, and then I cannot stop until they're all wrapped up. Unfortunately I reached physical exhaustion first so I still have chores on my plate.

Emotionally I'm doing relatively okay. The intrusive thoughts re: suicide are still there, but they are not interrupting my daily activities. I still get waves of doom and gloom mentality that wash over me, but they pass as quickly as they come on.

 

[1964dodge]

i started off sick today and had another pain day. finally everything is under control and doing well

mike

 

[Lostman85]

i started off sick today and had another pain day. finally everything is under control and doing well

mike

Glad your feeling better.

 

[1964dodge]

Glad your feeling better.

thank you

mike...

 

[cymbele]

Home finally. My daughter let me vent the frustration out of the last portion of my trip and I am ready to forgive and move on. Too quiet here after racing around for a week and a half And having someone to chat with constantly. I like to talk. I am okay.

 

[seabird]

Lost, suicidal, and alone.

 

[1964dodge]

Lost, suicidal, and alone.

I'm sorry that you feel so poorly, i hope tomorrow is better. remember you're never really alone you have many friends here

mike....

 

[puffymilk]

I feel good

 

[Lostman85]

Feel stressed out and very overwhelmed. I really hate that I have to struggle so bad. I never new i was ever gonna be in a position to lose everything or end up gone for good. Im never gonna be able to function correctly again. I shouldn't be here now. All I want is to be gone so everyone can be happy and move on. Im to much of a failure and im the reason everyone is miserable. I cant take much more pain. Im tired of hurting.