I have been considering talking to the school therapist. I am hesitant because I'm pretty sure they would be obligated to hospitalize me for my thoughts. My thoughts are so fucked up there is no safe place to talk about them. I don't find the relief I need by tip-toeing around the details. When I have seen therapists before I just talked about events that increased my depression. My 'events' are not very serious so they don't understand how severely depressed I am. I can't tell them about how I visualize things. I just feel like my real thoughts are too extreme to take to a therapist. So even if I went I wouldn't been able to get real relief.