Hey, I'm new.. My name is Jenny and I am 19 years old.. I was professionally diagnosed at age 18 but my mum (who has worked in the mental Heath field) has suspected I'm borderline since I was like 14. (I've also been professionally diagnosed with severe depression) This disorder must be hell with the mood swings and the making a big deal out of nothing deals. But, anyways, I've been in a relationship with my bf for a year and 3 months now.. And the disorder and the depression is getting worse and worse.. I can't even go a day without being a bitch and jumping his shit over nothing.. And then there is the extreme mood swings. One minute ill love him and then I say I hate him because he does one thing wrong.. Also the fear of abandonment. I always break up with him because I think he's gunna leave me because I'm fucking insane. I've also been feeling suicidal because I don't think things are ever gunna change for me.. I just wanna feel sane. I just wanna know how to make the relationship better and cope with my problems before its too late... I don't want to lose him but if I keep treating him like bad.. I probably will.