Gosh, I never thought I would end up in a suicide forum...I mean not because it is bad but just because I have never dealt with this before. I have been married for 16 years and I always thought we were happily married but off and on now for a couple years my husband has been talking about ending it all and killing himself. I always thought it was a figment of speech...I think we all have said it jokingly before but this last time he said it was different. Almost 2 years ago my husband was quite sick. My family told me they all think it was depression. I blew it off and said..No he is really sick. After a year of being off of work on medical leave having every test imaginable and everything came back ok...I began to wonder. My sister who is an RN said if I looked up his symptoms online the results would show depression. I had a talk with my husband and he is convinced his illness is not medical but spiritual. (He is a very spiritual man) I just disagree with him. I try not to push him too much for answers because well I guess I am just afraid. He was finally let go from his job because he has been out of work for a year in a half dealing with all this sickness. The more and more I think about it, the more I think he is deeply depressed and needs medical attention. He got a new job and then after calling in sick for a straight week they called him and told him they could not use him. This is very out of character for my husband because he is the most reliable guy there is. The more and more I think about it the more I think he needs help. He told me the other night he was so depressed that he wanted to take a bottle of medication just to get it over with but then he thought of me and knew he couldn't do that to me. Lately he as been saying to me that if he ever died I would be better off. I am really not sure where to even go with all of this. I just am wondering..should I take him serious? What should I do? He is fine most of the time, he just has all these anxieties about going to work and just other everday things and that just isn't him. I am at a loss of what to do. Thanks for listening to me if you are still with me. Maybe I am just reading WAY more into this than there needs to be .