I just found out yesterday evening that my grandma, my last surviving grandparent, died recently. I searched her obituary online to verify it after hearing the news, and apparently it happened Saturday. I found out from my former neighbor that I am still friends with. I am wondering why I found out from her and no one else. Well my dad doesn't talk to me much, and she was my mom's mom, so maybe she is upset and hasn't felt up to letting me know. It didn't seem like my mom told our former neighbor to let me know; she just sent her condolences upon hearing the news. I almost didn't believe it was true at first. I honestly don't know how to feel. She was never a huge part of my life growing up because she lived so far away. Plus I was always closer with my grandfather (who passed about 4 or 5 years ago). Since I came out as transgender and moved away to start my transition, I haven't been close to much of my family besides (eventually) my mom and sister. I feel sad, but I also feel like I'm not sad enough. Maybe that will come in time since I'm still a little shocked. Maybe it won't. At this point in my life I've pretty much accepted that I don't really have much of a family. I just don't know. I'm confused.