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How to recover from an ED by yourself?

RyanKey=MyLife

Well-Known Member
#3
Is there a reason why you wouldn't want professional help with recovery?
Yes. I've had no luck with the CMHT. To cut a long story short, they said that my lack of motivation is just me being lazy. Everything I told them, they had a they're right and I'm wrong attitude. I got diagnosed with an ED by CAMHS when I was a teen, nothing has improved. According to the CMHT I don't even have an ED(was told this in my first assessment within the first 5 minutes of telling her why I'm here!) Tried again 3 years later, had an assessment with a man this time and was told the same thing.

This has turned out into a longer story, I'm sorry. :(

Also, I feel as if people will agree with the "professionals" without even knowing me.

*trigger warning as I mention numbers*

I'm 28. 5" 2 and I weigh 37kg. I am unable to eat without feeling guilty. I'm used to eating 300-800 calories a day. I know I need help, it's been 14 years with no change and the "professionals" will not help me.
 
#4
Yes. I've had no luck with the CMHT. To cut a long story short, they said that my lack of motivation is just me being lazy. Everything I told them, they had a they're right and I'm wrong attitude. I got diagnosed with an ED by CAMHS when I was a teen, nothing has improved. According to the CMHT I don't even have an ED(was told this in my first assessment within the first 5 minutes of telling her why I'm here!) Tried again 3 years later, had an assessment with a man this time and was told the same thing.

This has turned out into a longer story, I'm sorry. :(

Also, I feel as if people will agree with the "professionals" without even knowing me.

*trigger warning as I mention numbers*

I'm 28. 5" 2 and I weigh 37kg. I am unable to eat without feeling guilty. I'm used to eating 300-800 calories a day. I know I need help, it's been 14 years with no change and the "professionals" will not help me.
Damn. I'm sorry you had to go through that and you haven't been able to get the help you wanted. I'm not a doctor and obviously I can't make a diagnosis, but it seems obvious to me that you have an eating disorder if you are underweight and you feel guilty for eating. I would strongly recommend going to a GP and discussing your symptoms with them - they should be better able to make a diagnosis and advise you on what you can do.

As for advice or experience on recovering from an eating disorder, I used to, as a child, have anorexia. I used to obsessively count the amount of calories in my food, eat as little as possible and was very skinny. Although I can't say I don't have any body image issues, I have managed to recover from the anorexia. Unfortunately I don't have a cure or brilliant advice, but I can try. Maybe you could you to try and rationalize the situation by checking your BMI and weight and realizing you aren't overweight and you don't need to lose weight. Maybe you could also try eating healthy but calorific foods instead of unhealthy foods to make you feel less guilty. Also, try and avoid things that trigger your bad feelings and promotes a bad body image. I found some more tips here.

I'm sorry I couldn't be more helpful. I hope you can get the help you need and feel better soon. Sending hugs *hug10*sadhug.
 

MisterBGone

Well-Known Member
#5
Hey there! So sorry to hear of your struggles... my experiences dealing with this sort of thing are second hand—& way in the rear view. How ever, from what I recall it is best when the ED is treated as something of a ‘mental disorder,’ and so, in order to “solve,” it — you first need to (or ultimately in the end) get to the bottom of the root cause / or the “why?” You’re doing what you’re doing. . . In other words - (& I know this is oversimplifying terribly!) the food is the effect; whereas the cause is as yet to be determined. . . That is why it is in your best interest to seek out professional help. Maybe you’ve just been to the wrong place, or seen the wrong people, or both! ;) Real, practical help does exist. We have a program locally that specializes in these things and I’ve heard tremendous success stories over time. Though, admittedly, I haven’t got a clue as to how they go about doing so, or it—that is the, if you pardon the phrase, or the expression, “method to the madness!!” ; ) good luck 🍀👍!
 

LOSTINSIGHT

Well-Known Member
#6
Yes. I've had no luck with the CMHT. To cut a long story short, they said that my lack of motivation is just me being lazy. Everything I told them, they had a they're right and I'm wrong attitude. I got diagnosed with an ED by CAMHS when I was a teen, nothing has improved. According to the CMHT I don't even have an ED(was told this in my first assessment within the first 5 minutes of telling her why I'm here!) Tried again 3 years later, had an assessment with a man this time and was told the same thing.

This has turned out into a longer story, I'm sorry. :(

Also, I feel as if people will agree with the "professionals" without even knowing me.

*trigger warning as I mention numbers*

I'm 28. 5" 2 and I weigh 37kg. I am unable to eat without feeling guilty. I'm used to eating 300-800 calories a day. I know I need help, it's been 14 years with no change and the "professionals" will not help me.
being told your lazy is scandalous ,does this place not have psychologists that specialise in truama .keep searching for the compassion you deserve .the fact your open about your ED says to me you want answers and proper help .

"ive become a master at hiding it all",,i relate to this lyric.I have deep trauma and issues I seem to of gaslighted myself most of my life , i hid my pain in addiction and projection .i would do anything to want answers in my 20s ,i was so cut off from my own feelings and pain .
only recently i can admit to myself as a grown man i have body dismorfia ,this is the first time ive wrote about it .reading others being so open is slowly releasing my shame and guilt .
Im no DR but ive read alot in the search for my own pain and self destruction.
there is a reason you have an eating disorder,,dont let anyone tell you its your fault or your doing it on purpose ,,find the compassion thats out there and your defences will come down and you can open up .
It rages me that these people call themselves "help" and they treat trauma like an army boot camp .
Take care on your journey .
 
#7
This has turned out into a longer story, I'm sorry. :(
That's ok, it's good to know more about what's going on. There's nothing to be sorry about.
I've had no luck with the CMHT
It sounds like they're not able to help, or are just not willing to provide the resources necessary to help, so instead they heap blame on you. I'm sorry that this has happened. I wish they'd at least just say, "Sorry, we're just not going to help because we suck" rather doing that. They're just making things worse.

I am unable to eat without feeling guilty
Do you know know why you feel that way?
 

Innocent Forever

Still innocent!
SF Supporter
#8
Hi @RyanKey=MyLife
Would you get help privately?
It's not about the diagnosis.
Personally I'd get books on intuitive eating and learn to trust my body. Also listen to recordings by Louise Hay daily - positive affirmations and choosing your thinking.
And just forcing yourself to eat 50 cals more each week regardless how guilt inducing it is.
 
#9
You might want to try contacting www.mind.org.uk

They might be able to give you info about books, support groups, or other resources. They may also be able to help you overcome obstacles and advocate for your getting approved for professional treatment through the NHS, if you want that.

CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) is one of the treatments that is typically used to help treat anorexia. I'm not sure if there are books about CBT with an ED focus, but a member here has recommended The Feeling Good Handbook by Dr. David Burns as a good CBT self-help book. There's some evidence that you can benefit from learning CBT techniques on your own.

The links in my signature have some general info about treatment methods that might help with motivation. I'll post a copy of the links in case you can't see signatures.

Treating Depression, Anxiety, Insomnia and General Help
Acupressure Self-Massage for Depression, Insomnia, and Anxiety

In particular, you might want to try acupuncture and traditional Chinese herbal medicine to address the issue of motivation. A practice like yoga, or qi gong might be helpful as well.

I can say more about these things if you are interested.

I hope something can help
 

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