Hello Emack,
I know how you feel. I have held everything in especially for the past fifteen years. About three years ago I statrted seeing a therapist, and she has gotten me to open up some and she has taught me coping skills.
You have to go with your gut feeling when selecting a therapist. It took me three before I met Gina, she is great.I am going to piss her off tomorrow when I tell her what has happened here recently. And that I am facing suicide.
She doesn't like talking about that she kind of skirts around it. I guess it might be because if someone tells her all about why they are suicidal she is obligated to report you so you can't harm yourself. I am going to tell all tomorrow when I see her! Take Care!!~Joseph~