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here's why?
1.I am very lonely - no friend will pick up my phone...(tried to call 3 friends none picked up the phone)
2.I am getting an opportunity to end myself - my life is full of suffering...after i end myself..i will either go to heaven or for an afterlife(not hell because i have already suffered maximum in my current life..so there is nothing sad for me to experience..i have virtually experienced every grief humanly possible to experience...I wont say what griefs for then u ppl will feel attachment and compassion for me and then i can't end myself.)
3.My family members r always busy..no time even to look at me....
4.My gf has left me(she told me that i am a loser,a coward,a freakish human.)I know i am unstable which further motivates me to do it..
5.I can't go outside and do much socializing(i easily get lost even if i have been to that place 200 times.shame for me).
6.Ppl have been taking advantage of my good nature.
7.I have an incurable mental illness...and its getting worse slowly...
what is the point of living when i cant socialize,have a girl i love... and even can't speak properly in public...
I am living in the present.Tomorrow i hope that i won't be able to see the sun,hear the birds chirping.Sadly i cant even write to u all tomorrow.
Either tomorrow i will be dead(resting) or worse in hospital (to suffer more)...
Now i am going to write my end note..and place it in my bed .Of course i would place something on it..(in case..it flies and gets lost...)
don't u ppl wish i just do it and eventually have a better life?(even slightly better 1% better is great for me)...
Thank you all for reading..U ppl r honestly my best frnds...I wish u were there with me ..instead of those ppl surrounding me in real life...U ppl r really good human being(not like me..selfish..always thinking about myself)
able to think for others,genuinely help others...
Thanks again...
Peace...
here's why?
1.I am very lonely - no friend will pick up my phone...(tried to call 3 friends none picked up the phone)
2.I am getting an opportunity to end myself - my life is full of suffering...after i end myself..i will either go to heaven or for an afterlife(not hell because i have already suffered maximum in my current life..so there is nothing sad for me to experience..i have virtually experienced every grief humanly possible to experience...I wont say what griefs for then u ppl will feel attachment and compassion for me and then i can't end myself.)
3.My family members r always busy..no time even to look at me....
4.My gf has left me(she told me that i am a loser,a coward,a freakish human.)I know i am unstable which further motivates me to do it..
5.I can't go outside and do much socializing(i easily get lost even if i have been to that place 200 times.shame for me).
6.Ppl have been taking advantage of my good nature.
7.I have an incurable mental illness...and its getting worse slowly...
what is the point of living when i cant socialize,have a girl i love... and even can't speak properly in public...
I am living in the present.Tomorrow i hope that i won't be able to see the sun,hear the birds chirping.Sadly i cant even write to u all tomorrow.
Either tomorrow i will be dead(resting) or worse in hospital (to suffer more)...
Now i am going to write my end note..and place it in my bed .Of course i would place something on it..(in case..it flies and gets lost...)
don't u ppl wish i just do it and eventually have a better life?(even slightly better 1% better is great for me)...
Thank you all for reading..U ppl r honestly my best frnds...I wish u were there with me ..instead of those ppl surrounding me in real life...U ppl r really good human being(not like me..selfish..always thinking about myself)
able to think for others,genuinely help others...
Thanks again...
Peace...
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