I am not a depressed person and I am not depressed. I have to say it because I don't want to be known as depressed. I am very pleasant in fact and I don't know why as I don't know what I am. Nobody will help and I feel like a real science fiction monster. I don't think I am many people. I don't think I want to kill myself. But I am something else. And I am scared now. I tried so hard to tell people I really did, without telling them details as it is cruel. But I cannot handle much more. It hurts so much. Nobody believes a thing I say. I have a job a degree everything. Nobody believes a thing I say. I am pretending you aren't there. I just need to yell at somebody but I am far too timid. I can't do it. I am not depressed but I cannot listen to them, I cannot do it. It's too much. I really need help. Please. I help others all the time. nobody will listen. I am truly on the edge. I am scared. I am scared.