I have locked myself away all weekend in my room. I haven't showered and I have not gotten out of my pjs. I have been eating ice cream and fast food all weekend long. It makes me ill too because I have been on a very strict diet the past few years, I usually eat no more than 20 carbs a day. I feel disgusting. That is the point though, I guess. I dont want anyone to ever see me again. I want to be invisible. If I could have been invisible before I never would have been raped when I was little and as an adult.