Hi there. I honestly don't now how much longer I can pretend that life is "ok." To make a long story short my life has been one bad decision after another for the last 3 years. If I could find a backspace button on life I wish I could press it and undo everything that I have done. I had to resign from my job in Sept 2010 (I was making great money, but I had a great spending problem). I am now unable to find any work despite looking every day and trying for almost every position. It is sad how much money can effect you and your attitute, but at this point I am unable to even keep a roof over my head. I broke up with my boyfriend of 5 1/2 years in November for someone who turned out to be nothing but complete lies, I moved a friend in and she had a crush on me and got rid of my cat so I kicked her out. I got back together with my possesive ex from when I was 19, I thought in the beginning "He's different, he's changed", No he hasn't he wants to monitor every move I make. My water and electric are about to be shut off at my house so I can't go back there (it's in the process of foreclosure anyway). I just feel trapped with no way out. Every month I worry about my car being repossesed because I can barely make the payments and on top of the the IRS is garnishing my wages from 2008 so this check will be less $400. Another bad decision. I have tried for assistance but I do not qualify and in all honesty I do not want any govt. assistance. I just turned 38 yesterday and I just thought that I would actually have a life figured out by now. I try to laugh and think its your 20's when life should be chaotic not your late 30's. I don't know what to do. I know what I want to do - sit in a corner and cry and give up on life but for some reason I keep going. I just don't know what to do or how to do anything. I don''t have a relationship with my family, I have 1 close friend, and I can't turn to my boyfriend for support. The only thing that keeps me going every day is my dog, but she would be better off without me. Thank you for listening to my rambling, I could go on but I don't want to bore anyone. Take care.