Why?? I was doing so well:-( for the past few weeks. The increase in my medicine seemed to be working, i have had no side effects and my Doctor said he has a "plan". I had a really nice holiday, played with my grandchildren, but dammit I am back thinking and doing suicidal stuff. I feel hopeless again.... Why so suddenly? I have everything to hope for but I feel so hopeless..... I hate this feeling, these thoughts and I am so tired. Thanks for listening, again..