I don't feel adult, but my body keeps aging

[I_waste_everything]

I wasted this practice run at life- hence my username- and there's no fucking way this is it. I know this, because I don't even feel like I'm any older a person than I was on the day I was supposed to start first grade.

But my lich, this flesh around me, is playing along with the temporal delusion around me and building a visage that is separate from my mind.

This rouses my anger. Back before first grade, I would have hoped that by the time I look like this I would be a whole new person, an adult with great knowledge and experience and acquisition like my Mom and my Dad. But instead, I am a waste, still a child, and the outside doesn't match the inside.

 

[Pebble mouse]

I can relate very much to what you are saying. I feel emotionally stunted myself. It's not your fault, please don't blame yourself. I've also wasted most of my life. I am STILL wasting my life.

The people here care. I care.

Look after yourself.

 

[Fbr27]

What is being adult though?

 

[I_waste_everything]

What is being adult though?

I suppose the allegation by the general public that if you never got started, you don't get to ever start. That's what I'm up against. Unfortunately, they're often persuasive to me.

 

[puffymilk]

I can kinda relate. I'm in my late 20s and recently I've noticed a few changes in my appearance, that I look a bit older. I don't really like it because I have also recently slowly getting out of my depression that lasted for almost 10 years. I feel like the world is so unfair to me, I'm getting better but the cost is my appearance? My age? I pretty much wasted my youth because of my depression. I always try to remind myself that it's always a perfect timeline, that maybe I am meant for something good, sooner or later, that's why I had to get through all that crap.

I hope things get better for you. Hugs