I posted already in My Story but maybe this is where I should be. My Brother came to my house on July 25, we talked he rubbed my back and said "I love you Mel" walked outside and Hit my boyfriend of ten years in the head with a hammer over and over from behind. He never said a word about Ruben to me, they have never had even a disagreement, I had no reason to believe my brother would do this to anyone much less the man I love. This all happened without any warning or explanation. See Im crippled and for the past ten years now Ruben has loved me and cared for me and all my needs. He truly loved me as much as I love him. He made me feel smart and beautiful and never like a burden. He loved me in spite of my condition. So why would my own brother who I also love and never argued with or had any issues with decide to come to my house to kill the man I love? Ruben was in a coma until August 21 when he passed away. I was only allowed to see him a few times while he was alive. His kids are all grown and his oldest son who has never in the past ten years even invited his dad to his house and has only been to our house about 8 times wouldnt allow me to see Ruben unless I gave him Rubens tools. I had nothing to do with him and his dad not spending time together, according to Ruben it was his sons wife who had an issue with Ruben. But it was my brother who attacked his dad. I didnt know Ruben was attacked when my dad first came to get me because he found ruben hurt in the garage. Ruben had been working with a grinder earlier that day so I thought maybe it was somehow involved or maybe something fell on him. That was at 3:49 p.m. and I didnt find out it wasnt an accident until around 10 p.m. When I was finally able to go to the hospital to see him his son refused to let me. He came and got the first load of tools about 4 days after the attack. He came to get the second load and cleaned out the garage only 2 days after he died. He wants to strip everything and anything that has to do with Ruben from my house because he says this is where his dad was hurt. Who cares that we spent the past ten years together and that he knows I had nothing to do with this or that I had no way of knowing my brother would do this. So Ruben is disappearing all around me and I think Im losing my mind because since this started I have had little sleep because I cant not see what I saw. I barely eat because my stomach feels like its constantly in knots. My family feels so bad they can barely talk to me and Im not sure I can trust his kids, well I am close to his daughter but brother trumps me naturally. All I do is sit here all day every day waiting for him going over that day in my head and every conversation my brother and I have had as far back as I can remember looking for clues. I still dont know why he did this. I still cant believe this is real. Ive never felt pain like this and I have a hard time focusing. This has taken me 2 days to write so far. Im having a hard time wrapping my mind around this whole thing and Im really not sure I ever will.