I attempted suicide in march, but failed. I took so many pills, but I didn't even vomit - I don't understand. It wasn't well planned though. I took my failure as a sign to keep living. (Not from a higher power or destiny). Since I was 7 I wanted to commit suicide. I feel lost, a outsider, I'm different for everyone and I don't know how to cope. I don't know what to do. I'm so upset, i was reading on a forum about people saying how the disabled are a burden to society and their families, how they should be killed. I feel so angry at people, I've been made fun of for having depression and taking meds. I hate myself, my anger at people and society on general is growing too.