Part if my mental illness relapse is having distorted thoughts. I see that and counter them but they get stronger and harder to shut out. Then my others start making more noise and want us to end this life. Today I called my T and told her we are in trouble and then agreed to go to the hospital but when we think of going we feel incredibly exhausted so could not drive. My group agreed to not taking action for tonight so we are safe but we see out t tomorrow. She will ask what the plan is and we can't tell her. We have to have that option. I don't know how to keep that secret and maintain safety. What would you do?