Okay so before I explain to you what I don't know what is wrong with me, I will tell you what I do know. I have severe depression, I'm suicidal, I cut, I'm bipolor, I have ADHD and I get headaches all the time. I also have really bad scoliosis but that has nothing to do with my brain like most the others.
So anyways, EVERYTHING bothers me. Literally everything. Every noise and every movement bothers me. Noises such as chewing gum, eating chips, tapping fingers or a writing utensil on a desk, singing, sniffling and feet dragging on the floor as someone walks. When I am trying to listen to music, talk on the phone, or watch TV and I can hear someone else talking, listening to music, or watching TV, I cannot handle it. Some examples of movements that bother me are when people are sitting down and they repeatedly move their leg or feet, I can't stand watching someone bite their nails and even flashy pop-up adds on my laptop annoy me. And all of those are just some examples and they bother me to the greatest extent, I'm not just a little annoyed by them. I am so annoyed that sometimes in class all I can do to keep from killing everyone is lay my head on my desk, close my eyes and plug my ears. But I can't always do that. I am increasingly getting more and more bothered by everything. I used to be able to deal with it but I can't anymore. It's getting to the point where I want to kill myself so badly because I cannot live the rest of my life like this, it is so unbearable.
I have gone to three different psychiatrists and none of them have a clue what is wrong with me. I was just wondering if any of you have ever known anyone who was like this or know if there is a word for it or anything.
So anyways, EVERYTHING bothers me. Literally everything. Every noise and every movement bothers me. Noises such as chewing gum, eating chips, tapping fingers or a writing utensil on a desk, singing, sniffling and feet dragging on the floor as someone walks. When I am trying to listen to music, talk on the phone, or watch TV and I can hear someone else talking, listening to music, or watching TV, I cannot handle it. Some examples of movements that bother me are when people are sitting down and they repeatedly move their leg or feet, I can't stand watching someone bite their nails and even flashy pop-up adds on my laptop annoy me. And all of those are just some examples and they bother me to the greatest extent, I'm not just a little annoyed by them. I am so annoyed that sometimes in class all I can do to keep from killing everyone is lay my head on my desk, close my eyes and plug my ears. But I can't always do that. I am increasingly getting more and more bothered by everything. I used to be able to deal with it but I can't anymore. It's getting to the point where I want to kill myself so badly because I cannot live the rest of my life like this, it is so unbearable.
I have gone to three different psychiatrists and none of them have a clue what is wrong with me. I was just wondering if any of you have ever known anyone who was like this or know if there is a word for it or anything.