I don't understand why I'm not the same. Something about my brain is different and I don't understand why. I don't feel like the same person. It feels like my brain is damaged, but the doctor at the hospital told me that it wasn't and I also had a CT scan done and it didn't show anything. Yet I feel totally different. It feels like my mind isn't there anymore but I have a hard time seeing that anything is missing. It's just such a mysterious thing. I feel confused all of the time and severely depressed. Many of the things that I used to think about, I don't think about anymore. I used to really enjoy my music, but I never feel like listening to it anymore. Could depression cause confusion and for me to feel like my brain is damaged? I don't know that it will help, but I got my doctor to put me on an antidepressant(Mirtazapine). I figure that it won't hurt anything. This all started after I got stressed out. Nothing traumatic happened so I wouldn't think that my brain would be damaged, yet I'm not as sharp as I used to be and view reality in a totally different way. I'm really scared of the way that my brain is. The doctors just don't seem to know what to do. It's a terrible feeling to feel like your mind is gone. I was always so sharp before. I was watching some videos of people with brain injury and it seems like they have different types of problems. My biggest problem is my confusion and the way that I see reality. It's so mysterious and strange. I just don't understand why my mind feels so much different yet so many things are working perfectly.